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May 31st 2018 ,Thursday

BACKSTORY SUMMARY
There's a guy who I thought was cute and flirted with for months. I got his Instagram even his number. In the beginning I hadn't known he had a girlfriend but he didn't act like it. Once I found out I stopped flirting that being said we never stopped talking. A couple weeks later they break up. Then I see an opening so I start flirting with him and he flirts back this happens for quite a while each time getting more and more flirtatious. I then realize he got back with his ex a week later. But not once whenever I flirted did he say he had a gf or act like it. They later break up again. After that we would talk and him and his friends would throw signals that he liked me his friends would even say it In front of him and never once did he deny it. But then a week later I find out he's dating someone.

8:03 am shower
Why the hell am I still thinking about him. I wake up and he's the first thing that popped in my head. I've been in my feelings this whole week. Every single heartbreak song that plays on the radio I feel in my heart for some reason.

8:46 am school
I saw him. I didn't dare look his way. He was in his usual spot with his friends. I would have to walk past him as usual to get to mine. Everyday before this day I would be worried about how I looked. I would always looked around sometimes making eye contact with him. But not today I continued to look forward and my eyes didn't stray at all.

12:04 pm hallways
I saw his girl. She's pretty I guess. Funny thing is she's the exact opposite of me. I guess I was never an option to begin with.

1:28 pm courtyard
I saw them together. They're cute I guess. But they didn't have to come do close to me. It's whatever I guess. I went into the bathroom after and screamed. Then I started singing Lucid dreams with my friends and felt it in my heart. Bad thing about this was I had next period with him.

2:00pm classroom
I moved far away from him. I never looked in his direction or talked to him. I was quiet and irritated didn't feel like talking much. Even if I was talking to his friends which was a few times I never looked at him or smiled when I laughed at jokes in his direction.

7:42 pm kitchen
Why the hell am I still thinking about him. Why is it that everytime a song about heartbreak comes on I feel it in my soul. I play them on repeat for hours likes their giving me life.

12:58 am bed
Anytime I'm not distracted he pops up in my head. What the hell is wrong with me. I shouldn't think about him. But it's hard not to.