It was 20 years ago that this happened. This is the story of how I met the love of my life. By the way my name is Jasmine. So here is the story.
I don't believe at love at first sight. It's stupid. You can't tell that you love someone just by their looks. It's like saying I love her because she's hot or because she looked at me. How stupid is that? That's what love at first sight is.
One of the worst days of the year is Valentines day, I hate it, absolutely hate it. People in love make out everywhere they go, people with crushes or girlfriends/boyfriends get flowers or candy or something like that and people get proposed to. I'm only 13 so I don't expect to find the love of my life today. Not for a few more years. At least 5, I hope. Even the thought of loving one person for the rest of your life just confuses me, I don't understand it. I understand loving your parents or your siblings forever but why some random person?
I was just walking down the school hallway with my best friend, Jenna. She is much taller than me so it's weird going anywhere just the two of us but we were just coming back from the gas station across the street from our school. We had just gone to our lockers and were on our way to L.A.. Normally she wouldn't walk with me, normally she's with Becca but the two of them are in a fight so I made her come with me.
It felt like a normal Friday in June, warm, sunny, loud. But it wasn't. We were in the hallways and she saw a very hot boy. She pointed him out to me. For that I will always be thankful to her. I instantly fell in love with him, but I knew that I shouldn't love him when there was an insanely small chance that he would ever love me back (or even notice me). He walked into our L.A. class right before we did. He took the seat next to Jenna. I was on her left, he was on her right. I had never wanted to trade spots with someone so badly. The teacher made him go up to the front of the room to introduce himself, he said his name was Caleb and that he had just moved here from New York city. All the girls started liking him, sadly.
Jenna and Caleb spent the whole class whispering and flirting. He liked her and she liked him so I tried to get over him. It didn't work. The two of them started dating. Jenna slowly stopped hanging out with us, her real friends, and spent all her time with Caleb.
They were a really cute couple. I went into a depression because of him. I wanted him. I didn't want to tell Jenna though, I still wanted her as a friend. In the depression I stopped eating and hid in my room as much as possible. It didn't look good. I was like that for 2 months. I would only eat when I was forced to. My parents took me to see a doctor and he told them to make me eat more and to see a shrink. She suggested that I take out my anger in other ways. She told my parents to feed me like there's no tomorrow. I hated it, I didn't want to eat, food makes you fat and I'm fat enough so I found a solution, purging. I got even more depressed because I didn't spend time thinking, I spent my time avoiding food so I could avoid my own stomach acid. It got to the point where I got even more depressed than I was to start off with. I was mad because the boy I loved was in a relationship with one of my best friends. I completely stopped eating, I was fat to begin with and I still was. I got worse because I felt bad about myself. It was summer at this point. It was too hot. I couldn't go in the pool because I couldn't be caught dead looking as fat as I was at that point. My parents took me back to the shrink. She believed me when I said I was eating food again, she suggested working out when I felt sad or fat or lonely and she also told me to always wear an elastic band around my wrist for when I couldn't work out or when I felt like purging, which I was still doing at that point.
I started working out. I didn't stop. I stayed in my room doing the hardest workouts that I could find. I got my mom to bring me workout videos. I lost 10 pounds in the first week. My parents started worrying but the doctor told them that it was the healthiest thing I had done in a while. I barely left my room for the rest of the Summer, I only left for bathroom breaks and to eat. I didn't like eating anything that wasn't healthy. It hurt to eat high calorie, unhealthy foods. It made me feel like all my hard work was for nothing. By the end of Summer I was only 100 pounds but I could lift over 110 pounds and I had abs that most people would kill for. Any girl that would have seen them would have wanted to kill me for them. I was healthy.
On the first day of school I passed Jenna and Caleb again. They were still dating. They had almost every class together. And with me. It was hard watching him always kissing her and loving her. It was one of the hardest parts of my life at that time. Jenna didn't know what had happened to me that Summer, no one did, but she noticed on the first day of school. She could tell that I was still in a depression. She knew me better than anyone else.
A month later she broke up with him. He got mad and starting beating her up. He left her unconscious in a park. She was found about an hour later and was taken to a hospital. He almost killed her. I shouldn't have still loved him. But for some reason, I did. A week later Jenna woke up from her coma. She told everyone about how Caleb had beaten her. Caleb told everyone that she was forcing him to date her and then she broke up with him then he left the park and heard screaming but didn't want to turn around and give her the attention that she so badly wanted. He said that she did it to herself. She didn't. He did it to her. He told me that he had always loved me. I told him to get help and then that I might be nice enough to become friends, and only friends, with him. He agreed.
A year or so later the 2 of us started going out. He had changed. A lot. We dated for 8 years. Then we got married. Jenna started karate and got her black belt 3 years later. She became very famous. She became a famous fashion designer and started a help phone to girls who are in an abusive relationship. She was killed last year by an abusive boy that had had a girlfriend that was calling her and he threatened to kill his girlfriend Jenna had been there when he tried to shoot his girlfriend, Jenna stood in front of her and said "If you want her you have to go through me." He shot her in the head. That's why I remembered this story. I was looking for some good memories the two of us had had when I came across the diary entries I did for these few months. Caleb and I have had 3 kids and I am pregnant with our fourth. Their names are Dylan, Jessie (girl) and Kaelyn. I am pregnant with a girl and am now planning on naming her Jenna.
