Mid Way Through

Chapter Five

I slam the door of my hotel room behind me and slouched to the ground. What was i thinking? Why'd he have to do that? I dig my hands into my hair and massage my scalp. I can't. I mean, I could but...But what? There's nothing forbidding us to kiss. Or even... no. I just can't. But why not? Why do i feel so strongly that i shouldn't. I groan in frustration and slap my hands on the floor beneath me, "God damn it!" I sat in the same spot for a few minutes before convincing myself to take a shower. After the shower, i went straight to bed. But i couldn't sleep. My head was filled with the fact that i just kissed Finn, and sat in the car on the way back in silence with him.  I think i really like him though. I mean, he's sweet and not an ass. Plus, he's hot and cute all at once! I'm not ready for a relationship right now! At least i don't think i am. Especially not with an A-list celebrity. Would our relationship even work? What would my band mates say? What would his band mates say? So many questions ran through my mind at the same time. It was a mistake for me to kiss him... Wasn't it?

The next morning, me and the band headed to our interview. It took longer than i thought. Afterwards, we went out to eat lunch at a small restaurant. When we sat down Lionel folded his hands together, "You guys did good at the interview. Actually you've been doing good with everything lately. With that, you guys were invited to another party tonight, hosted by RocknRoll News!" Lana and Eric cheered and whooped. Me and Haida gave Lionel a high five. 

"Guess that means we'll be around other bands too then," asked Haida.

Lionel nodded, "Yup. Your buddies, Calpurnia is gonna be there too." A giant butterfly zoomed through my stomach when Lionel said the name of Finn's band. He's going to be there? Lana's face lit up, "Great! That means we can hang out with them more." At this point, i was actually having thoughts of bailing out and not going. What if there are reporters there and they start asking questions. My palms began to sweat. "You'll be able to see your little boyfriend too," Haida said and bugged me with his elbow softly. I chuckled nervously. Eric carried on, "Yeah, maybe that'll be you guys's opportunity to announce that your going to sing together after their tour."

"Maybe not so soon," I blurted out. 

"Well why not? You guys already established it didn't you," asked Lionel in confusion. Everyone got quiet waiting for my answer. I rubbed my palms on my pants and sighed, "Yeah but, i think we should wait till after their tour. I don't want the news to take dim light for their tour. Plus, something might come up," I shrug. "Ya never know."

Eric nods, "Yeah your right. We have work to do anyways. We don't want that to take away from any of our stuff." Everyone nodded and agreed then carried onto another conversation. Good thing i got that out of the way. After we ate, we left. We all went back to our hotel to get ready. I wore a red velvet v-neck slip dress, with black strap heels, and a velvet black choker. I left my hair down with a middle part, straightened. Before i headed out the door, my phone rang. It was a notification from Twitter and google. "Holy shit," I whispered to myself. When i checked the notification, it was an article from HUBBFEED. It had a couple of pictures of me and Finn getting in his car, before and after the show from last night. The caption read, "New Possible Couple; Calpurnia and O-pal's vocalist spend a day together." Did this really have to happen now? After reading the article, Finn started to call me. I hesitated to answer, "Hello?"

"Did you see the article," he asked. He sounded as if he was trying to keep his voice down. I could hear Jack and Malcolm laughing in the background.

"Yeah, weird right," I say in a low tone and laugh nervously.

Finn didn't speak for a moment, "Can we talk about last night."

"Are you sure you want to now? Sounds kinda busy on your end," I responded. Ayla screamed something to Jack in the background.

Finn sighed, "Fine. But.. I just don't want it to be weird. I know you guys are going to the party and i really want to see you."

When he said those words, "I really want to see you." I could've given in so easily, at that very moment. "I want to see you too," I said. We sat in silence for a moment before Malcolm and Ayla screamed for Finn to get off the phone. 

"I've got to go. I'll see you soon, okay," he said.

"Okay."

Then he hung up. Why do i like him so much? I was never easily intrigued like the way i am with Finn. He's so perfect and i love it. But something is telling me not to. 

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We arrive at the venue at half past nine. The first thing i thought of was Finn. As if the only reason i came there was to see him. I danced with Lana for a bit while Haida and Lionel were talking with reporters and Eric was chatting up some half french half Italian vocalist. She didn't seem interested but he was persistent. In the middle of Lana talking to me, she squealed and pointed to the entrance, "Jack!" Jack seemed pleased to see her. Lana didn't hesitate to scurry away and bear hug him. Behind Jack, came Finn. He looked directly at me and smiled. He walked towards me and gave me a light hug. "You look good," he said in my ear. 

I blushed a bit at his comment, "So do you." He wore an all black suit with two buttons unbuttoned. Black looked so good with his skin. It was casual but attractive in a weird way. I liked it. a lot. 

"Thanks, do you want to get some air," he asked. I nodded in response. I followed him to the back area outside of the venue. I assumed we were here to talk. At least this way, we could avoid any reporters. He turned to face me and sighed, "So last night.."

I cleared my throat, "Yeah, that." I looked down at my feet. He stepped closer towards me and i looked up. "i know it must've been really weird. I didn't mean to put you in that position, but i-," he paused for a moment, to collect his thoughts. "I really like you. I am obsessed with you. It might sound selfish and out of the sort but-"

"I like you too," I blurted. "I've never encountered someone like you. You make feel different but the same all at once. I want your comfort to myself." Finn stepped closer to me and cuffed my face into his palm and kissed me. His lips were still cold as ice, but soft. They felt the way i would imagine kissing clouds would feel. That feeling of suffocation came again every time our lips parted. I felt his arm wrap around my waist and pull me closer into him. This feeling was amazing. The feeling of me floating in air. I loved it. I loved the way he made me feel.