Heyo another one bc I'm lonely and needa rant oki?

im here to vent in poetry

i hate everybody so here we go
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it started out fun
just the three of us against the world
i felt like i had already won
like i was the only one who had this feeling
the feeling of friendship
it felt special
though through the fun times i saw the dark
the fucking dark closing in on that feeling
that very special feeling
of being part of something
it started with subtle hints
like
you look really bad today
what the fuck happened to you
or my personal favorite
that was fucking dumb
oh it hurt
really fucking bad
losing the friendship we had
i don't know what to do
was it me or was it you
i'm sorry my getaway from reality changed me
you were leaving and i had no other choice but to do something that made me feel good again
i'm sorry i'm a different person
i think i'm happier now than i have ever been
i'm proud of myself
but you
oh you
you can't fucking do that
three years means nothing to either of you
and i knew it was fake the entire time
there was no way it could have been real
but when i'm too scared and my closest thing to a friend says something about it
you scream
you yell
and tell me about your strong reputation that you need to uphold and how i'm just bringing you down
how self centered is that
and then you try to tell me that
you're not trying to be mean
and how
it sounds bad but it's not bad
HOW THE FUCK DOES THAT MAKE SENSE
AND LEAVE ME BE
IM GOING TO GO BE SOMETHING
AND DO SOMETHING WITH MY LIFE
AND IF YOU TRY TO STOP ME THINK AGAIN
BECAUSE YOU CANT
JUST FUCK OFF