Spider-Man/Jans Roth MCU

Jans' PTSD

Jans at his mom's funeral

Jans was just thinking about what might've happened if it was me instead it would probably affect her mom the same way it affected me
Then I was up next to speak behalf of my mother
Jans:my mother was the best I could ever ask for. She loved me she cares for me. She certainly is the best. Her lasts words to me are I love you.

Then he said nothing and an hour later he wanted to be alone but people he knew cared about him

Jans is in his room isolated looking at his picture of his mom saw his old uniform and wondered if he made the right decision when he was 13 then he heard a doorbell
Right now Jans' hair is all messy and he recks of depression and when he answered it was Lilly and Micheal
Jans:hey guys umm hi umm....
Lilly:are you ok we heard your mother-
Jans:died
Michael:obviously look how he looks
Jans:yeah I heard that Peter died too
Lilly:Mr.Stark said so on a broadcast
Jans:yeah it's all because of Thanos my mother and half the universe is dead
Michael:we came to check on you
Jans:thanks for umm check up but I'm ok I just wanna be alone
Lilly:ok. Gives him a hug and heads up to her place
Jans laying on his bed and he slept

In his nightmare

Jans:what the no no not again no!
He starts to cry
And then he hears a knock on the window and it's Tony
Jans wakes up from his nightmare and his face was all puffy and his eyes were wet
Tony waves
Jans opens his window
Tony:I heard about what
Jans:please don't I don't wanna talk about it
Tony hugs Jans
Jans:thanks and I'm sorry about Peter you know
Tony:hey don't worry it's Thanos that was the one that caused
Jans:yeah so you got a plan because I'm done sitting on my ass wait what time is it
Tony:it's 7:37 A.M.
Jans:so it's Tuesday you got a weapon we can use
Tony:we might but it needs developing
Jans:yeah of course. Call me when it's ready
Tony:will do but until try to get better. Then he leaves the house
Jans takes a shower and suits up and swings around queens and sees a man threaten a woman to give him all she has
Jans:hey yo I thought you people had things better to do
The man grabs the woman and aims hi,s gun at her and says come closer and she's dead and just when Jans is about to shoot his webbing at him, he suddenly pauses and sees his mother die right in front him in his head
The man:is something wrong Spider-Man maybe if I put a bullet in you
Just then a female vigilante shows up and stops him
The hood:go get out of here. Then he knocks out the man and checked on Spider-Man|are you ok?
Spider-Man:I uhh.....I'm fine
The hood:you don't seem fine
Spider-Man:uhh yeah I'm fine
The hood:why didn't you just stop him you just stood there and did nothing
Spider-Man:I...I am fine I need to be alone
The hood:you sound like a friend of mine
Spider-Man:well he has a good reason. Then he swings away

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Before the war

Jans was thinking about have boyfriend girlfriend relationship with Lilly
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At home of Jans Roth

Jans is just looking at his phone pics and almost of them are with his mother

Just then he saw Lilly walk by his window and before she could knock Jans opens the door
Jans:hey
Lilly:yeah
Jans:how are you
Lilly:I've been better
Jans:yeah considering
Lilly:what about your brother John
Jans:he likes to be called Johnny but I haven't heard from him
Lilly:he might be
Jans:let's not talk about him
Lilly:ok I actually wanted to talk about us
Jans:oh really?
Lilly:yeah. I wanted to talk about we could talk about almost everything
Jans:really you mean like secrets
Lilly:kinda I mean we can watch each other's back
Jans:like what the ho.. Hmm hmm I mean like umm batman and robin?
Lilly:yeah sure
Jans:so what is it your keeping from me
Lilly:ok if I'm gonna be totally honest. Have you heard of the hood
Jans:the vigilante from the news
Lilly:yeah it's uhh hehe she's umm
Jans:you? Huh
Lilly:how'd you know
Jans:just keen observation. That and that look on your face
Lilly:ha you jerk but for real how did you figure it out
Jans:I've seen images of her and she was the same height as you
Lilly:so facts
Jans:yup
So Lilly actually figured it out that Jans is Spider-Man well she had a feeling
Jans hugs Lilly and starts
Lilly:Jans it's ok you can cry
Jans:she's dead because of me
Lilly:no no she's dead because of thanos not you ok
Jans:but I was at Wakanda
Lilly:I know I hope they didn't give you a hard time
Jans:no they didn't do harm
Lilly:good
Jans:feels great not keeping secrets from you
Lilly:I know

The end

Ok so I'm actually loving this I actually originally wanted this spider-man to not have any love interests but I changed my mind when I was making this story