The Shadow //Larry S/Lirry/Zarry/Narry

Chapter 10

Louis was sound asleep so I slowly climbed out of the bed and slipped my shoes on.

I walked over to the chair with my shirt and slipped it on.

I felt bad for leaving but I missed my home, I needed to shower and change anyways.

I walked out of the hospital and looked at my beautiful car.  My limited edition Bugatti Veyron. Blue with black interior.
My dad couldn't have picked a better car for me.

I got in, sat down and closed the door.  It smelled like zayn. His soft cologne, honey smell. I pulled the box of cigarettes out of my pocket and lit one. Replacing Zayn with the thick smell of tobacco.

I put the key in the ignition and started the car.

There was a CD in it.
I pressed the eject button, and it was Zayns "feels mix".  I put the CD back in and pressed play.

Zayn liked rap. I hardly listened to it unless I was pissed, and wanting to hurt someone.

Dark, I know but I get so angry some times, I think dark thoughts.

The monitor read Antarctica by $uicideboy$

I pulled out of the lot and the bass started beating and I turned it up as loud as it could go without completely killing my ears.

  I pulled up to a stop sign, and since it was pretty late, I put the car in park and listened to the rest of the song.

You know how a song can give you certain feelings right? Well that feeling was numbness.

  I just felt numb.

I put the car back into drive and continued to drive. I recognized some of the other songs. But that song stuck out to me for some reason.

I pulled up to the apartment complex and took the keys out. I sat back in my seat for a minute and let out a long sigh, rubbing my eyes.

I slowly got out of the car and locked it. 

I walked up the stairs to the apartment and pulled they keys out of my pocket. I walked in to the broken vase cleaned up and the house polished and clean. It smelled like warm apple pie candles. Zayns favorite.

I walked into the room to see zayn asleep on my side of the bed.
I sighed and walked up to the bed and sat on his side and I just rubbed my temples.

I walked to my dresser and pulled out clean underwear and some silk pajama pants. I also grabbed my bluetooth Bose speaker.

Even though I'm a guy, I love silk. Everything silk. Pillowcases, sheets, pajamas.

I walked to the main bathroom, and stripped down to nothing. I put my clean clothes on the counter and the dirty ones in the hamper. I also put my speaker on the counter and connected my phone. I put it on my sad mix.
I opened the glass door and stepped onto the cold tile floor and turned the nobs.  I needed a hot shower.

When the water hit my back I had to bite my lip to get use to how hot the water was.

I grabbed the Oribe shampoo and rubbed it in my hair and It felt like heaven. Scrubbing all the grease and dirt out of my hair from the past days.

I rinsed my hair out and put conditioner in. I sat there for a minute staring into nothing.  Then rinsed it out. I washed my body rinsed off again. I just stood there feeling nothing.
Save Me by Xxxtentacion came on, and I just lost it. My eyes got so hot then tears just started streaming down my freckled cheeks.
That song has always made me cry.

I sat down in the corner of the shower and just started shaking and sobing.  I hugged my knees so tight to my chest. My lungs felt so tight that I felt like I was going to die.

I heard the bathroom door open and it was zayn still groggy, rubbing his eyes.
I put my head in my knees and I sobbed even harder

Zayn opened the glass door and turned the nobs off.  He reached back out and grabbed a towel.

I was still crying in the corner not intending on stopping.

Zayn stepped in and kneeled down and played the towel out across his lap and awkwardly pulled me into his lap to where I was facing away from him and he wrapped the towel around my waist perfectly.

Then he just held me for a few minutes.  I slowly stopped crying and I got the courage to stand up and step out of the shower.
I stopped the music, and zayn closed the shower. I looked at him expressionless.

He walked up to me to hug me. I pulled back.

"Can i please be alone for a minute." I asked turning around.

"Yeah. I'll be out on the couch." He said closing the door behind him.

I turned back around and took the towel from my waist and finished drying off, and finishing by wrapping the towel on my head. I pulled my pjs on and brushed my teeth.

I took a deep breath and walked out to the living room.

Zayn was sitting on the couch still looking half asleep playing on his phone.

"Hey," he said looking up.

"Why, why are you here?" I asked still sniffling a bit.

"I'm sorry, Harry I couldn't. I just couldn't leave." He said.

"I can't do this zayn." I said.

"Please give me a chance, H. I only left because he literally threatened to kill me!" He said.

I shook my head and crossed my arms.

"Please Harry."

"One."

Zayn looked confused.

"One more chance Zayn.You can stay here, but you hurt me again and I'm done." I said.

"Thank you Harry, thank you." He said as he got up and hugged me.

I just nodded and hugged back. I let go and started walking towards the room.

"I actually call my side though," I said.

Zayn laughed and walked into the room.

I walked in behind him and pulled the towel off my head.

I crawled into the bed and sighed in relief.

I pulled the covers over me and zayn turned the A.C. on. He got in bed and didn't get too close to me, which I appreciated.

"Goodnight Harry."

"Goodnight Zayn."

I said and closed my eyes.

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Okay so I'm sorry for the short chapter, but it's curently 4:33 am and I need sleep, so expect more tomorrow or the next day.

Anyways bye for now lovlies 💕