I feel useless
And I don't know why
Even though I've tried my best
It's always not enough
I tried but sometimes
I feel tired
I always fall
But no one would catch me
Even you who just used me
I always feel lonely
No one would talk to me
Behind my smile I always cry
I feel pain
I feel unworthy
I feel useless
I feel dumb
I feel stupid
But I always feel numb
I love you
You love her
I choose you
You choose her
I miss you
You miss her
I'd dream of you
You'd dream of her
You always makes me cry
And you always makes her smile
Why is it always have to be with her
I want to end my life
I want to die
I wanna suicide
But my dad told me not too
My dad told me that I don't deserve someone like you
Dad told me that my best is enough
He told me that I'm not lonely
He told me that he would talk to me
He told me that he hates to see me cry
He told me that I don't deserve pain
He told me that I'm worthy
He told me that I'm not useless
He told me that I'm not dumb
He told me that I'm not stupid
He told me that they love me
Thanks dad but I don't believe in the things that you've told me
I'm useless and I'll always be useless...
-♡
