Silence Is Key

I don't wanna be here

The pills. Just five inches from my grasp. I can open the bottle and overdose, or I can stay here on earth. I decided I am going to die today. I don't care where. as long as it happens. I don't wanna feel. I don't wanna breath. I wanna die.

The bottle is opened and the pills are in my hands. As I slowly reach my mouth, I start to question myself.

"Will anyone miss me?" I questioned in my head

"No, who the fuck would miss a fat bitch like you?" said the demons.

I became silent. I will leave a note for my parents.

<note>

Dear Mommy and Daddy,

I killed myself today. I didn't do it because of you or my sister. I did it because I am bullied, I don't know if you know this, but I'm anorexic.

Don't cry for me. Because I will be happier. Whether I'm in heaven or hell, it's got to be better than my life down here on earth.

The cuts on my wrists are actually from knives that I've used, to hurt hurt myself. I know you were wondering what they were from. My wrists are always red from snapping rubber bands on them. I did it so that I could feel something. But it did't help. I

killed myself using sleeping pills.

I don't want you to cry once you see my body, or when you see this note. I want you to take care of my sister. Make sure she is happy, because if she isn't something like what I have done might happen.

I leave all of my stuff to Karlyn. She's my little sister, I don't want her to grieve. I don't want you to tell her that I killed myself until she is much older. She wouldn't understand. I even leave Johnny, our horse to her.

I would like to be buried. I don't care if I have a funeral. Mainly because I'm not sure anyone will come.

I love you so much. Daddy, thanks for driving me to the barn every day. Mommy, thanks for being there when I need you most. I love you both so much.

Karlyn, I love you so much. you're the prettiest little girl ever. I love you so much. Stay the perfect,pretty, awesome, smart, and intelligent little girl that you are. I love you. We'll see each other in the garden. I will miss you. I love you.

Love,

Addisyn

<end of note>

I am getting sleepy. I'm just going to bed. Maybe the pills are kicking in.