Bitterly Yours- Sequel to Twisting You

Xavier's Secret (the short story you mighn't have read)

It just came to my attention that this isn't in the story group. This was a short chapter I wrote which takes you back to the beginning of Bitterly Yours. It is what happens between Twisting You and Bitterly Yours. It may answer some questions!

So I wanted to share it here and have a read; the next upload with Chapter 11- I am working on now :)

It was previously exclusive to my readers group.

Sim xx

Xavier's Secret

I knew it was going to be difficult. Maybe impossible. But yet it had to be done and I had done it. I let Chloe go. I lied my ass off but she believed me. She believed me when I said I couldn't feel her pain. I felt every inch of it, the tightness around her heart. I felt it. I felt the tears she was holding back but what I felt the most was, her love for me.

And I walked away from it. I turned my back on her. She was I another country, yet I could still feel the pull for her and my mind wouldn't stop- the questions going over and over in my head. Is she ok? Why did I have to move so far, so I couldn't feel if she was or not ok. Who was she with? How was she coping?

Jeremy her father and Chad, gave me marching orders as soon as I told them what was happening with Emily. But it wasn't their threats that made me leave.

"Xavier?"

I looked up to see Emily. Her and I stopped being husband and wife, the day I picked Chloe and how did Emily take it? Really well.

We were friends now- and that was what we were.

"Yes Emily?" I couldn't be heartless when it came to her. She was going through a hard time, and it was torture watching the mother of your children slowly dying.

"I'm going into the clinic." She crossed her arms. "Can you look after the boys?" I saw the tiredness in her eyes.

"I don't think you should be driving." I got up. "I'll talk you, the boys can come. They love the waiting room as it is." After all we spent a lot of time at the clinic, the boys were comfortable there now.

Emily sighed. "I'm be fine."

Seeing Emily slowly dying in front of me. And there was nothing I can do. I might want Chloe. But that didn't mean I wanted the mother to my boys to die. Espeically when Emily and I begun beginning friends. We had to admit friends worked a lot better than husband and wife. Cause I didn't love her in that way, I just couldn't and god blessed me, cause Emily understood and took the news really well.

"You're doing a great job Emily. Now, remember, we stay positive." I lifted up her cheek, seeing the tears in her eyes.

"Xavier?" Her voice cracked, and I saw the fear in her eyes.

"Yeah?"

"I need to ask something of you."

I frowned. No. No way. "We aren't having this discussion." I knew exactly what she wanted to talk about. What I am to do when she passes. I wasn't interested in having it now. Because I had lost my mate, and soon to lose the mother to my children.

I didn't know if I had it in me to be a sole parent.

"Xavier, please?"

"No."

"We have to. It's about the boys."

I sighed, great. My eyes were to her and I nodded my head. If it was about the boys and what she wanted for them, then I had to listen.