A Destiny Story

(Not) a normal day?

All began when I got my diagnose with an age from 14. I still remember it very good.
But the last week in unknow, from all of this bad things, I was a quite a normal girl. So I'll tell you.

I went to school each day.
I meet my friends at the weekends.
I have a friendly family.
Like always.
Anything was in the right order.
I was happy.
Many people liked me.

Till the point where I got often sick.
Till the point when I missed much time in school.
Lot's of my friends meet new and my classmates were going to ignore me.
In this time of unknow I startet to think.
Think about life.
Think about myself.
Think to the heaven.
Think to my family.
Think to the destiny...
Yeah the destinty.
I ask myself some things:
When we are born, is the destiny always written?
Are we able to change the destiny?
Are we able to duped the destiny?

Next day.

My Mum allowed me to go to school.
I was very happy.
I could see my friend again.
Last time was 2 weeks ago.

Sure we call sombody but it's not the same.
It was Wednesday, the 3rd March in the year 2017. My 8th grade.

On this day it was raining.
I pulled my hoody, jeans and boots over, and grab my winterjacket and my rucksack.

This day I walked to school. In this outfit, I hope, I won't get an illness again.

15 Minutes later, I stood in my class. It was empty but I don't wonder.
The first bus came even in 10 Minutes.

I sat down on my chair and wait.
I looked around the class and notice some things.
The class was cleaned and a few photos from our classmates hang on the wall.

A few minutes later the first classmates join, but they ignore me, even when I greet them.

Much time to be depressed, I haven't because my best friend, Sarah came trough the door and saw me.

I was very happy to saw her face. Smiling, I stood up and want gave her a hug.
But suddenly I feld numb.
I can't feld my fingers and my toes.
Confused, I wait a few seconds and starred to my hands.
So fast this moment came, it was over and all was quite normal.
In this case I startet to smiling again and gave my best friend a hug now.
Sarah was a bit confused too but I startet to talk before she could ask.
'Sarah, good to see you.'
'No, good to see you sis,' said Sarah happy.

We walked to our seats and began to talk.
'How much I missed?' was my first serious question.
'Hm, I don't really know. Very much. We wrote two class tests and we presented a few things. Math the same topic. English, writing a formal letter to the editor. Chemistry, not pretty much more than two weeks ago. And the in the other subjects I'll tell you later. But come on, how are you?'

I thougt. And without telling lies...
'Sarah, I know that's a very strange answer, but I don't know. I had a bit a cold but not really bad. It's really strange. I even don't know what happends to my body. The doctor said, that everything is okay, but I don't think so. Strange things happend and the cold is inside my body. From inside to outside' I told her.

Sarah only listend and saw up to my face when I end.
'How long have you had this feeling?'
Sarah make me fell nervous. She never asked me this kind of questions.
'Why is it important?'
'Alice, answer!', she ordered me seriously.
'Sarah, you scare me.'
But when I saw her face and I know she didn't joke.
'I think since a few weeks.'
She looked straight in my eyes.
'Okay, I just wanted to know... yeah, you are my best friend and it listend not really good, that the cold is from inside to outside.'
I just nodded. It felts good that somebody cares for me. So I know that I'm not alone.
A few seconds later the teacher came into the room and went infront of the class.
'Good morning. Please sit down.'
All sat down. I pulled out my books.
'Ah, Alice, good to see you. How are you?'
'Good, I'm fine thanks.'
Why asked me Mr. Bailey how I am? That was a bit strange because he never asked students how they are. Never.
And never me.
He hates me.
Whatever bad happens it's always my fault.
One time I must went to the headmaster because I took the pencil from Sarah, even she allowed me to took it.
I hates him.
He hates me.
All is in the right order.
But he asked me about my health. That's really strange.

Now I took my pencil an wrote everything down he said.
I wrote everything down the other teachers said in different subjects.
I wouldn't stay down this grade just I have every week a cold.

Even when I'm so often sick I'll be have a good education.
Generally, I have much plans for my future.
I'll one time travel around the world.
I'll own a cutie 'little' dog.
I'll be gets kids and a wonderful man, who loves me as I am.
And so much more that I can't count it down.

'Alice, Alice.' Sarah snapped infront of my face.
A light twitch from me and I listend to her.
'Alice, is everything okay? You seem a bit dreamy. Sometimes, a bit thinking, in your deepest thougts. You starred straight against a wall and you stopped moving. Like frozen.'
I stopped moving again. That's very interesting to listend when I thougt in my deepest thoughts
'That listend funny.' I said smiling.

We both startet to laughed and for a long time I was really happy. Happyness, which will not be forever.

Not even trough the next morning...