Parallel Universes || Phan

Chapter 11

Dan's POV*

Phil and I were walking through the bitter night, collars tugged high around our necks. My mind couldn't settle on the one thought. 

Oh my god we're alone! Shut up we were always alone before Phillip came! How is Phillip? Damn it's freezing! I could probably turn into an ice cube right here and now! Oh god, should I say something?

I kept my mouth clamped shut because I couldn't trust myself to speak. I'd probably say something stupid and confess my undying love to him then watch as he freaks out and runs away. The thought of ever telling him is terrifying. He's saved me in so many ways and I wouldn't give our friendship up for anything ... even love.

I always ... ALWAYS keep my feeling in the dark if it meant I got to keep Phil as my own ... for as long as possible anyway ...

One day he's going to find someone ... most likely a girl but I'm not paying attention to detail. He will find them, fall in love and then will want to start a family ... he'll leave me, leave me with my feelings. Sure, I might be his best man at his wedding or something, not that that makes me feel any better ...

One day he will leave me.

So ... maybe-

NO! I can't tell him! I won't risk it. I won-

"Dan? You're being unusually quiet." Phil spoke up. I tensed and breathed out a breath which clouded in front of me due to the cold.

"Oh, sorry about that. I just spaced out." I gulped, slowly getting my confidence back. He gave me a small smile. 

I only just heard the 'typical dan' under his breath and smiled to myself ... he knows me well enough ... and for now, I am content with being his best friend. 

Maybe, just maybe. One day I will tell him ... no promises.

"We're here." Phil cheered and we both went inside for an evening drink.

Phillip's POV*

I sobbed hard into my pillow, letting it all go. My whales sounded through the apartment like a lost echo. The tears continued to run freely down my face, it's been going on for at least three hours now. I needed to calm down for when Dan and Phil got back.

I gritted my teeth and ran to the bathroom, desperately trying to stop crying and washed my face. I sniffed as I washed my salty stained cheeks before drying off on a towel. My chest ached with wanting to cry more and a thick lump stayed in my throat.

Why?

Why did he have to ...

Flash Back

 "Slow poke!" Dan called behind his shoulder.

"Hey! You got a head start you cheater!" I laughed and ran harder before pouncing on his back. We both fell to the ground with a laugh, giggling in a heap. We rearranged ourselves so Dan was snuggled into my stomach and we both looked up at the blue sky.

"This is so cliche!" Dan's nose wrinkled. He did that when he was irritated, usually when something was too cheesy. 

"Trust you to say something like that at a moment like this!" I chuckled and gently combed my fingers through his hair. He sighed in contentment.

"Yeah well, that's just me. You're going to have to love all of me if you want to be my partner." He smirked.

"I already love everything about you, flaws and all. Although you hardly have any flaws whatsoever!" I smiled and pecked his forehead.