Beyond the Polaroids...

Chapter 3: Overcoming the Past

JUSTIN'S POV

As Clay and I finished our breakfast I looked down to see a text from Jess on my phone.

"Can we meet up and talk about last night..."

As I read this I instantly become worried.

Does she regret what we did..?

As I texted back Jess I looked over at Clay's plate to see he was basically finished. I stood up and thanked Mr. and Mrs. Jensen for breakfast and took Clay's hand and led him to our room.

"Our" room... I never would've thought..

I shook my head at this thought

They don't really wanna adopt you don't kid yourself, who'd wanna adopt YOU

As I told myself this I kinda laughed at myself aloud for even believing they wanted to adopt me. As I laughed and shut the door behind us Clay looked at me weirdly so I quickly cleared my throat and switched the subject.

"You gotta take me to meet up with Jess, its about the...." I caught myself before I said it aloud.

"Kiss...." I said trying not to sound like there was more to the story but failing completely.

"Why did you say it like that? That's all you guys did right..? Kiss..?" Clay said non convincingly. I wasn't convincing myself either.

Maybe you should tell him...

No, I need to talk it out with Jessica first.

"Yeah that's all we did I don't know why I said it like that..." I said not looking at him. He kinda looked at me for a little bit and then shook his head up and down still not thoroughly convinced but I️'ll take it. I changed into something kinda nice but nothing over the top, just a long sleeve button up and some nice khakis.

"Well don't you look nice." Clay said looking over at me trying not to laugh.

"Shut up." I said punching him in the shoulder as he started to laugh.

We both got into the car and as soon as we got to Monet's I got out of the car.

"I'm gonna make a quick errand and then I'll be back, no rush." Clay said to me as I started to walk away.

I thanked him then walked inside. As I looked around I saw her and as our eyes met I suddenly I forgot what I was doing and stood there like an idiot.

Shit, look at her... She doesn't deserve to be with someone like me

As I smiled to myself I suddenly snapped back into reality realizing she was waving me down and I shyly waved back. I started walking towards her and sat down with her at the table in the corner of the café.

"Hey." She said smiling.

God her smile. It's so sexy...

"Hey." I said smiling back.

"So, about last night..." She said suddenly putting on a more serious expression. I suddenly became nervous.

Great, look what you did you bastard.

As I finished this thought I listened back in to what Jess was saying.

"Thank you..." She said this smiling bigger than I ever have seen her smile.

"Thank you for having sex with you..?" I said half laughing and half with a confused look on my face.

"Yes. Well yes and no..." she said looking confused herself.

"You were the first person who has actually made me feel like doing... that. You know without the anxiety and stuff." she said this kinda laughing and I started to smile at her still a little confused.

"You helped me overcome a big obstacle. You helped me feel like I can be treated like a girl again and not be scared that every guy will do what he did. You didn't treat me like a victim, instead you treated me as if I was some royalty who you didn't deserve to even be looking at..." She said all this trying to hold back tears and I instinctively reached out to hold her hand but quickly let go of it unsure if she'd want me to do so. She then slowly reached out to hold my hand again and smiled.

"Well I don't... I mean I don't deserve to be with someone as beautiful and great as you are Jess. In my eyes you are a princess..." I said this choking up knowing that I'd never deserve her. She looked at me with something in her eyes that I couldn't read because she started to slowly lean into me and I felt her lips brush against mine. As we put our foreheads together I looked back into her eyes to see her tearing up.

"I feel like with you, I'm not a victim but just a regular girl who can trust guys again..." After these words a tear started to roll down her face and I quickly wiped it away.

"Let me show you how you should be treated Jess. I promise I will try to treat you like a princess if you give me another chance." I started to choke up again at these words hoping she would say yes, but she didn't say anything. She moved her hands to cup my face and kissed me with more passion and desire then she ever has before. I kissed her back with even more emotion than I thought was possible and tried to memorize how our lips synchronized. I put my hand on her waist and she moved her hands into my hair just like how we used to and I smiled against her mouth as she smiled against mine.

"I'll let you show me..." she whispered against my mouth and I sighed with the most happiness I've had in a long time as I heard a honk outside....