Wednesday, June 06

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by BeeVibes

by BeeVibes

So, I'm going to recap what happened yesterday since it's 11:23 a.m.

Yesterday: So yesterday I had to get up early to go to work with my mom, and i shredded papers for money. Im close to $100 in my acc. but that makes me sad, because I can't go to Interactive Introverts, and tickets are THIRTY DOLLARS AND ITS IN DALLAS. omg im going to die. Anyways, I rode my bike at like 7:45 p.m. yesterday and literally rode 5 miles. I passed my my crush's house, and his car was there. I rode past it kinda slowly remembering the time he took me over there to air up my bike and just talk. I realize now, that we would never be together again. We dated on and off 5 times, I know. But, I've matured more now since 6th grade. Im going to 8th, but a lot of things and change happens in a year, especially if you're in 6-8. You lose weight, and get more interests, and mature a lot. I'm really sad that he would never date me again. The issue is that he likes my friend, who doesn't like him back. So, now every time I want to see him, he's going to have eyes for another guy. (My friend is a trans guy.) And, she doesn't want to see him that often, and I dont want to be there alone with him because it'll be awkward. It brings me tears kinda. I just rlly think he's a dope guy, and I don't ever want to lose him. But, I'm watching from the sidelines watching someone I hands-down LOVE try and date one of my really close friends. Its put me in a mini-like depression state. And, I'm not saying I have depression, I'm in just a really bad state right now. Sorry, I had to vent. He's just so awesome and amazing and I love him, but he most likely doesn't love me back, since he has googly eyes for my friend who doesnt like him back. Life sucks like that.

bye

-Bee 🐝