Stuck

I Need U

"Yah, stop crying. You look so ugly."

Taehyung kept his sleeves up to my nose as I blew on it. He cringed in disgust as I just snuggled into his arms after wiping my nose.

"I'm sorry."

"It's okay."

He patted my head and just stared off into the woods that tucked away secrets it held.

We were sitting in an abandoned pool that had many graffiti marks and evidences of rebellious teenagers that came across this lost territory.  But it was mainly just us. It was just me and my seven boys.

"I missed you"

I turned my head to see his reaction. I could tell Taehyung was forming a slight smile and that made me feel content.

"I missed you too"

Said Taehyung in a soft whisper. It seemed like a reflex. It seems that he still remembers how to make me feel better even when he was committing to something not true.

"But you left me, without saying anything Taehyung."

Still he didn't answer me. I knew he was listening but he didn't answer.

"Do you?!"

Finally he turned to look at me with the poker face of his.

"Do I what?"

I knew the answer. I already knew everything but I just wanted a fake response. I wanted something more than just a blank expression. I couldn't stand being in his embrace. I couldn't stand when I knew I was getting attached to something unreal. I stood up and turn to look down at him.

"You know I needed you right? You are not dumb Taehyung."

He just scoffed and replied
"Yeah I know, I'm not dumb"

Our momentary cheery mood blinked away and came down the reality we were facing. I really feared that I would have to start this all over again.