well last night....last night was terrible....or the end of it was. I was with my boyfriend Stephen and I treating him to a blowjob because I promised him one when i got out of the hospital, which i note i've only been out since yesterday. So i was doing that and when he climaxed...he called me Ben. I dont know who Ben is or what but all i know he shouldnt be thinking about some other FUCKING guy while we're engaging in sexual activities. I am so heartbroken and confused. He says Ben is just a friend...but why would be thinking about him when I'm fucking sucking you off? I mean really? Its just not fucking right. If I ever meet this Ben guy, lets just say he wont like me very much. And of course me being emotional i start yelling and asking him questions. He tells me to stop yelling and grabs my wrist and makes my stitches pop open...like thats what i needed...i felt like i was in my relationship with my ex...i was so scared he was gonna hit me...i just....i dont know what to do...i need advice..
