Sad Kids

2

With our soft smiles and light eyes who could have guessed we wanted to die?

Round and round we go today, running running without any delay.

"where are you headed boy of mine?",

"All I need is one last try".
"Time is something I won't waste.  "Mother, I'll dry the tears from my face and try to enter the holy place".

"Holy place? Is that what you say?",

"Yes, yes! No more will I play. I'm so tired of being fake. One more smile and I promise I'll break".

"For goodness sake!", "You are so dramatic. Come on stop being frantic! Rest your head- lay on the bed. All you need is a good night's rest when you wake, no longer will you ache".

"Oh, how I wish that were true. But everyday I wake up feeling blue. No night will change it. My life I might just take it. In the sky is where I will rest and my life will be the best. My eyes will not cry, and my brain won't be fried. Am I truly living life if I'm only happy when I'm high?".

"No, but there's pills for that!".

"The same pills that could give me a heart attack?",

"Well how do I get you back?",

"Truly mother I've lost track of all the times I've tried to be everything you wanted me to be".

"But don't you want to please me?"

"Not more than I want to please myself. And this depression is bad for my health."

"Well, I'll call the best doctors in town. They will figure this out. They'll make sure your mind is sound.".

"You're wealth will not help. Don't you get that this is how I have always felt?".

"How was I suppose to know? All the things you hide behind your glow? Never once have you frowned. And I'm supposed to know you're feeling down?".

"How could you forget about the past? And the men you've loved last. Can't you see the role they've played, they're apart of the reason why I'm unhappy today.  And if you were confused you could have just asked. But instead you stay deceived by my big grin and booming laugh".

"I didn't know things got so bad".

"I miss the life I used to have. When I believed life was more good than bad. Before I knew life was more bitter than sweet. I remember humming along to a summer pop beat. How happy I was then when I had nothing but dreams in my head".

"Its not my fault that I wed. I was protecting you when I said "yes". I could have stayed alone but I married him instead".

"Alone I wished you stayed. But you will never understand the ways, all the ways he destroyed me. The things he would do to avoid me".

"And here I think you would be glad that I finally gave you a dad",

"A dad I didn't need. And my words you never heed. To you my feelings are crazy and you think I'm just being lazy. Now you're thinking I'm pointing the blame"

"Of course you are because you need the fame. You want everybody to see you the same. And everyone to play your sick games. "Sadest Kid" is your new name. "Please, my childhood was so horrible feel sorry for me". Do you think all that pity will make you feel free?"

"I guess its worth a shot. Love from you is what I never got. You think I can heal myself with all the pointless things you've bought?"

"You're so ungrateful. Your attitude is distasteful. Who raised you to be so hateful?",

"I can't change your views. But its hard to love someone when all they do is degrade you. I suppose you leave me be. There is no more hope for me. I'll hold you close for one more night, and after that I will not fight. I'll finally be at peace, promise you'll be happy for me."