a goodbye

This has been stuck in my head so I decided to write it down and post it. It's just going to be one chapter because all it is, is a goodbye.

The idea is to create your own back story for these characters.

Also, after you are done please leave a comment saying what you think is their back story and whoever leaves the best one will get this dedicated to them.

Well, I hope you enjoy this :]

I looked over at her as she drove me to the hotel where I was meeting my friends to leave. The sun hit her skin making the paleness of it glow with warmth. Random strands of her straight, long black hair was whipping around her face because of the opened window next to her. I wanted to remember the way she looked forever. Mentally I saved the image of her and by this time she had caught me in her peripheral. Looking away from the road, she turned slightly to give me a tight smile. Her once beautiful smile was replaced by this half hearted one made the pang in my chest grow even more.

I sighed to relieve the tightness in my heart and place my hand on her knee which made her hand slip off the wheel immediately and grip it as if she was afraid I would fall out of the car. I turned my hand over in hers then let my thumb absently skim the top of hers over and over. The feel of her small soft hand relaxed me slightly and made me lean back into the car seat further. I didn't want to leave this moment. I didn't want to leave her, but we both knew that it would come to this from the beginning. We didn't expect to become this attached to each other in such a short amount of time and it made me wonder if coming was even a good idea.

Mentally I slapped myself after that thought. Of course it was a good idea and I wouldn't take back anything that happened between us even if it was just strictly as friends. I didn't think it was possible to want someone to be in my life as badly I wanted her to be, but it could only go so far. So many restrictions and variables played into our relationship and so we stole this time to relish in each others company.

Her hand suddenly left mine, leaving it cold and wanting her touch again. When I looked up I realized that my exit was coming up and she released me to put on the turn signal. As the tall building of the hotel came into view the pang grew to where I wanted to have her turn the car around and never look at the place again, but it wasn't that easy no matter how much I wanted it to be. The car bumped back and forth as we pulled into the parking lot and the moment that was inevitable finally arrived.

A goodbye.

The goodbye.

The first and only goodbye.

When she turned off the car we both slowly got out not saying anything in hopes of prolonging what's to come. After she shut her door, she leaned against it then crossed her arms looking off to the side probably staring at nothing. Even though her captivating green eyes were covered by black RayBan's I could read her like the back of my hand and I knew she was trying to hold onto her emotions because she was never one to let them get the best of her.

I came around from the back then stood in front of her, the air suddenly border line awkward. Wanting to extinguish it I opened my mouth for the first time since getting into the car.

"Well, uh, I had fun..."

She looked up at me then cracked up at my attempt to say goodbye. This made a grin break out on my face and by instinct I pulled her into a hug by wrapping my arms around her neck and her arms automatically went under my arms and her hands landed on my shoulders. I buried my face into her hair and she did the same to my chest. I noticed her breathing changed and I held tighter wanting to comfort her as much as I could even though I was the cause of her overwhelming emotions.

We regrettably pulled apart and she looked up smiling through her sadness.

"I'm going to miss you." She said with more strength than she had.

"You know I'm going to miss you too." I replied.

Just then a black tear rolled down from her sun-glass covered eye. The paleness of her skin made her mascara tainted tear more obvious and I wiped it away with my thumb only to have it replaced with a new one immediately. Wanting to see her green eyes one last time I removed her sunglasses and she let me with no protest. Her eyes were coated with a layer of unshed tears and the more time that went by the redder they got and all I wanted to do was take her pain away. Take all of this away.

She squeezed them shut and wiped away the remains of her tears, but the blackness of them left a trail leading down her cheeks. 

"Sorry, this is so stupid." She said as her cheeks burned red.

"No it's not." I assured her as I let my right hand rest on the side of her face and it was only then that I realized she was leaning into my touch.

Our eyes connected and all I wanted to do was one thing. The one thing I wanted to do ever since I first got here, but the strings that came attached was something we didn't want to add to our already strained relationship. Looking into her eyes now it was like a understanding and want was being passed through us so when I leaned in I wasn't surprised when she didn't jerk away. What did surprise me was how she closed her eyes slowly as if expecting it. I looked down at her full lips then back up to her now shut eyes before closing my own and the distance between us.

All the stress and negative emotions I had been feeling had been removed from my shoulders instantaneously and I wrapped my arms around her waist as her hand landed on my shoulder and the other lined my jaw to hold me in place. Her grip tightened as she opened her mouth for me to deepen the kiss and I did so without hesitation. All of our emotions were being passed from one another through this kiss. Everything that was left unsaid came to life as soon as our lips touched.

Reluctantly we parted and leaned our foreheads together gathering ourselves.

"I'll be back as soon as I can." I said breathlessly.

She slowly shook her head and opened her glistening eyes to meet mine. "No you won't." She replied softly and understandingly. "But lets not spoil this moment."

I lightly sighed and nodded not wanting to ruin this either. Our breath mixed between us and all I wanted to do was stay in this moment forever with her in my arms and hers around me. Again her lips were on mine, but more urgent and as soon as the shock from her initiating it wore off and I kissed back with as much want. I would give anything to stay here forever with her. That our lives would have crossed sooner so we could be how we want without anything getting in the way or complicating our lives.

"Hey man, lets go!" I heard one of my friends call from behind me.

Again, I pulled away not wanting to and was met with her sad smile and slow trickling tears. Feeling more confident with myself I kissed them away and I heard her sigh lightly from the action.

"I'll text you." I muttered so only she would hear me.

Her smile grew before she replied. "You better."

We let go of each other and I opened the back door to get my over night bag I took to her place for my last night here. I slung the strap over my shoulder and pecked her one last time before walking towards my friends. One last time I turned towards her and she gave me a small smile and wave. She mouthed the words 'I love you' and I mouthed back 'I love you too' because we have known about each others feelings, but we never explored them in fear of it complicating more things in both our lives, so instead of admitting it out loud we said it silently.

She would always hold a place in my heart and what she said passed through my head. She wasn't one to lie or to hide from the truth, but I hated that this would be the last time I saw her. I would give anything to have it not be true, but life isn't that easy. So not only was this a goodbye from a trip, but this was a goodbye for good because after this we won't be able to talk to each other for much longer.

And for that I regret not meeting her sooner so I would never have to say goodbye.