~Jonah's POV~
"Hey Jo, I'm home" My mom called out.
"I brought back dinner"
"I'm not hungry" I choked out
"Okay..... What's wrong? " She asked.
"Nothing is wrong" I rolled my eyes.
"Jonah. You are always hungry. What is wrong? "
"WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU CARE NOW. YOU NEVER FUCKING CARE. JUST LEAVE ME ALONE" I yelled and went up to my room, slamming the door behind me.
I cried and slid down my door.
I'm not good enough for him.
I'm to ugly.
I'm not a person he wants to be associated with.
That's why he wanted to stay home.
Not because he wanted to spend the day with me.
I stayed up most of the night, coming up with a plan to be better for him.
🐧🐧🐧🐧🐧(next morning)
I skipped breakfast and walked in the building with my head low.
"Hey faggot"
I turned around to see Daniel, and Jack.
"What? " I tilted my head to the side.
"Why don't you let me smash. I hear that it's worth it" Daniel smirked and I turned right back around walking out of the school.
"Nobody actually likes you" Corbyn stopped me on my way out.
"Stop thinking they do" He added
(⚠ Trigger warning ⚠)
By the time I got home I felt like my lungs we're collapsing.
I made my way out of the car and I felt like my world was spinning.
He used you for sex.
He doesn't want to be with you, and he didn't want his friends to know he spent time with you.
I locked my bathroom door behind me and banged my head against the door as hard as I could.
I grabbed a blade from underneath my rug, I hid it there when my mom threw the others out.
I had never done it. I was going to.
Something was holding me back.
But now, I have no one. I used to have Corbyn but he's friends with Daniel now.
Was he ever really my friend?
Jack used me.
He never wanted to actually spend time with me.
I placed the blade On my wrist and pushed down, sliding it across my arm.
I'm tired of being alone.
Just kill yourself.
No one will care, not even your mom.
I looked down to see the blood falling from my arms and I kept going.
I let out a pained sob and I heard pounding.
"JONAH"
Jack.
"Go away" I pleaded
"Jonah please open up? What's going on? "
He questioned and I let out a dry chuckle
"You won't have to worry, or be ashamed of me anymore, Jack. " I spoke softly, everything becoming blurry.
Jack bursted in the room and let out a loud sob, running to me.
I tilted my head back
He was saying things but it just sounded like mumbling.
