It hurts but i like it in a way (a Harry styles fanfic)

Chapter 5 Gone

Songs for this chapter are:

Human-Christina Perri-

Santa baby-Taylor Swift

Safe and Sound-Taylor swift and The Civil Wars

Alex's P.o.v

"AHHHHHHHH!" i scream and sqeeze the crap out of harrys already red and swelled hand as the

tweezers pull at the bullet for the 67th time, tears pour down my face "Harry it hurts alot"  i whine

"I know" he sighs annoyed "You know if you dont want to listen to me complain about getting shot why

dont you just leave!" i shout at him "I dont think so" he narrows his eyes at me, i Narrow my eyes right

back at the faggot.

by 8:00 im back at harrys and half asleep on the couch when i feel arms wrap around me

"You know i love you right?" my eyes go wide in shock, did harry just say he loves me? hes known me for like 4 days!!

"What the actual fuck harry!" i say and turn around "What?" he says in shock "you cant say that! its

been like 4 days" i say angrily "yah and i cant get your face out of my mind, i love you more than my

own life aex, i told you im so sorry for what i did to you and i hate myself for it" he says "yah well its

going to take more than that harry" i say and run upstairs to the bedroom and lock the door, tears

pour down my face as i go into the bathroom and look in the drawers for a razor blade, i finally find

one adn pull up my sleeve looking at all of the marks in my arms, looking at how skinny i am, i slice

fast and hard, again, and agin, and again , harder and harder and harder as tears mix the pile of

blood on the floor and my arm, i fall to the ground and cry hystericily, i eventually sit up and wipe all

the blood with tilet paper and flush it, i clean my arm and hide the blade for later, i lay down on the

bed as pain throbs my arm, i wake up to harrys arms around me, i get up and walkj to the door, but

something grabs my arm, i wince in pain and fall down holding my arm, he pulls me up and pulld

my shirt up, he winces seeing all the cuts, tears pour down my face as he just walks out.

 i walk down the stairs quietly and see harry on the couch, head in his hands, crying?

my face fills with confusion and shock, "why alex?" he says "why do you think harry" i reply "is it my

fault?" he says "No, well, partially, my family beats me aswell" i say "I dont want to hurt you baby, i

cant stand seeing those on your wrists, my baby sister died, shes gone, all because of bullying,

she cut so deep, and her body couldnt handle it" he crys, tears pour down my face, "iim sorry" is all i

say "I love you so much alex, your my everything and i will protect yu from anything and everything

even if its only been 4 days baby" he says "Harry.. i dont know if i can give you what you want" is all i

say back "You Are what i want, baby please just try" he says looking at me with bloodshot eyes in

the pale moonlight "Okay, ill try" i say and walk over t him as i sit on his lap pretending everything

was okay, but its not.

Sorry ik i havnt uploaded ive been busy with school and everything thanks for staying with me though !!