My Pansexual story

self hate

I was fed up of all the people judging me for who I am.
I was Pansexual,so what?
Is anything wrong with that?
Apparantly they said nobody would love me for who I am.
They said I had to be straight just so I could be loved.
So I tried changing.
I tried.
again.
and again.
I wasn't proud of my self.
I hated me.
I started asking
"WHY AM I LIKE THIS?!"
It felt like in NEEDED to be straight in order to be loved.
I was so stupid that time.
I started locking myself in my room and cry.
I didn't like who I was.
I didn't want to get bullied anymore.
I was afraid.
I was afraid of judgement.
I wanted it to end.
But it can't.
"What now"