King George ||| x Reader. Fake or Fate

Chapter 8

Y/N POV:
"You're pregnant?!" he looks at me. He face is completely pale. He looks like a ghost. "Is it male or female?" his facial expression changes. "Is that what your worried about right now? After you learn that I'm pregnant once you raped me when I was unconscious, and cheated on your wife with me, ON YOUR WEDDING?" I scream at him. He responds casually and says "If it's a boy we can train it for special purposes so when he turns 18 he can into our army. If it's a female, then it can help clean the house and do whatever." "You make me sick." I hiss at him and walk out the door. I walk to my room, I immediately lock the door, I need some alone time. I sit on my bed, I begin to rub my stomach and whisper. "Hi sweet baby".  I go over to my desk and start writing small poetry, here is what I came up with.
She didn't want love
She wanted to be love
She didn't want freedom
She wanted to be freed
And that is entirely
Different
I kept replaying the events in the last 4 days. I need time to pass. But my only question is, why do I still love him. There is a person inside, I can see it! I know that person is in there somewhere, if I just try to seek it..! But.. I'm tired of seeking, if he really loves me, and doesn't want me for my body, then I wouldn't have to seek, he would just show me, I want him to show me himself, I need him to show me himself. So I know he loves me.
A note slides under the door, it was very quiet. I bend over and pick it up, it has little poetry on it and a note. It reads
I cannot undo;
What I have done
I can't un-sing
A song that is sung.
And the saddest thing
about my regret-

I can't forgive me,
And you can't forget.

You don't have to work for 9 months, you just cannot go outside. Right after the baby is born, the next 1 month later you will get back to work and leave the baby to me.
Love King George |||.

I start sobbing slowly and turn around and slide my back on the door. I slowly slide down to the floor and start sobbing louder, then I start crying hysterically. Then George opened the door which pushed me to the wall.  He walked in then shut the door and immediately hugged me. I didn't want to fight it. I let him hug me while I cried on his shoulder.
"Shh...shh...Calm down, calm down. He rubbed my head and he tried to calm me down." He took off his read coat and laid it on top of my back. He looked at me with his beautiful eyes and said "You know I'm sorry, I'm in this place where, drinking is my go to place, with the war, and the deaths and, my love life, it's, complicated. But I need to tell you something Y/N, please, please Y/N do not tell anyone about this, please swear on my father's death bed." I wiped my eyes and nose with my shirt sleeve.
"I swear" I say quietly. He looks me in my face with guilt and says, "I have depression". My stomach drops, I can't believe it. "I've been taking anti-depression pills, while I've been drinking. My head is in the wrong places." He looks down. "You? You have depression? But George, you have everything you want! Power, a free home, servants, every woman in the town wants you, every man and child wants to be you! Why would you have depression?" I cup his face in my hands.
"I don't want to have power, I don't want to have servants, I don't want everybody to be ME. They wouldn't want to be me, the stress of being perfect, of leading a full army across the sea to your country to fight, and one thing that is stressing me out is that, I don't have you anymore darling." He touches my face and he starts to cry softly. I wipe his tears. "Please one last time darling." I think about it, this is the last time I could ever kiss him again, he would end up cheating on Liesl, but Liesl knew what she was doing and looked me straight in the eye and whispered something, she grabbed him after he stopped! Well it's payback time now. "I'll make it count too" I smash my lips into his and it feels so great, his lips are so soft and smooth, I feel wanted again. We enter our tongues at the same time, and we just stayed like that, quiet, yummy, and beautiful. We kissed for 5 minutes, he started squeezing my ass and I let him, make this count I said to myself. Make it count. I put my hands up his shirt and rubbed his back slowly, and crossed my legs around his hips while we kept sitting on the floor. He squeezed harder and harder. I let out a soft moan.
He made his way down to my pathway and massaged it. We kept kissing and kissing and kissing, then it was a full 10 minutes. Then our final break he said to me "I just wanted one simple kiss, but a full make out session is just as better." he said quietly, then kissed my forehead. "I have a question, do you really love Liesl?" I look him in his ocean blue eyes. He shakes his head no. "She was my child hood friend, we were always the best of friends, she lived so far away, so whenever we were together, it felt so good to be beside each other, like we were family but, she's actually always loved me.
I was never that fond of her, but I always knew she loved me, I just never told her. But once I became King, she immediately wanted to be mine. But when the arranged marriage was set up, she was extremely happy. But really, all I want is you, and not just for your body" he smiled at me. His words touched me, and I felt so happy. "I want to find away to break away from this marriage, I want a divorce, I just really want you." He said playing in my hair.
"I will help you get through this depression, if you just trust me, we will get through this, Together." I say to him. "I trust you with all my heart". He says sliding his hand down my cheek. "We will work this out I promise, one day, it'll just be us, normal, happy, and together. Forever and alw-" I cut him off when I put my finger on his lip. "Don't get to cheesy now, just shut up and kiss me already..darling" I tease him and our lips touch softly.
My heart softens for I know that;
He is mine
He told me the truth.
I know there was a little person who was being held captive, I just needed him to show me what it had gone through, he wants to come out.
I don't blame him for what has happened, some things of course. but most things, I don't.
I realized something, and I know that I can never say I don't even if I try to fight anymore.
I love him
I love him
I love him
I love him
With ALL my heart.