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I'm finnnaaalllyyy back ! Sorry y'all summer school was kicking my ass.
But enjoy the first chapter you guys 😘

Sa'Lana

1:49AM

I heard his keys fumbling in the door before he barged in, slamming the door. He barged into our bedroom and cut on the lights causing me to stir. "Chris what the hell?" I fussed sitting up in the bed. Of course, he was drunk. His work shirt was halfway open, his tie no where in sight.  Not again. I rolled my eyes as he tried to pull of his falling shirt.

"I missed you baby." He slurred walking to me. I smacked my teeth as his lips sloppily kissed my neck. He began to roughly rubbed my body as he continued to leave wet kisses against my neck.

"Chris..Stop, i'm not doing this witchu' tonight." I lightly pushed him off of me, he stumbled back a bit before speaking. "What the f_ck wrong wit' you?" He fussed walking in my direction again.He tried to press his lips against mine but I dodged him again. "Damnit Chris I swear,stop!" I fussed again shoving him out of my way, watching him stumble slightly. He smacked his teeth and cursed under his breath, grabbed his car keys and stumbled out of the room slamming the front door in the process.

I know your probably confused. What the hell is going on? What's happening.. Let me start over..

My name is Sa'Lana. Sa'Lana Lee Rowe. I'm a 23 year old RN living in a condo in downtown Atlanta. And the drunk bastard that came through my door is my fiance,Chris.My successful entrepreneur fiance is an aggressive alcoholic. He wasn't always like this, drunk and obnoxious. He was the love of my life. My first everything. He took me from living in the hood to not having to want for anything. Now, 5 years later he's unrecognizable. I don't even know who he is anymore. But....I can't leave him. He's the only thing I know.

I let the tears flow from my eyes as I drift back off to sleep..

7:30AM

"Thank you ma'am, someone will be with you in just a moment." I said, taking back the clipboard with her information on it, watching as she took her seat. I began filling in her information before sending it to the back, leaning back in the chair slightly. "Someone looks tired," I heard a voice say. I turned to see my coworker and one of my close friends, Mya walking in my direction with two Starbucks cups and bags in her hand.

"And you look late." I smirked, taking one of each from her, sipping on my warm tea slowly. She rolled her eyes before sitting next to me, saying," It was either me be late, or the two of us starve so I think the words you meant to say were thank you." I laughed as she took a sip of her coffee and pulled up the next set of patients to put in the system.

I had been working as a RN for the hospital for almost a year. This was the first place that hired me fresh out of school and the closest one to my place with Chris. I remember getting in the car, so excited about getting the job and watching as he was just as excited as I was. It's funny how so much could change within a year's time.

"I'm sorry, what were you saying?" I asked Mya, snapping back into my thoughts.  She smacked her teeth before saying," This is why I don't talk to you about shit. You don't listen to me." She whined as I cleaned off the equipment beside me. "Sorry I had just zoned out I'm listenin'." She rolled her eyes before saying," I was asking about your sister's little friend that was flirtin' wit' you at her birthday party."

I rolled my eyes and looked at her, " Now you know I was not about to entertain his young ass. I have a man. I don't need a lil' boy tryn' get a nut okay? Plus if Chris saw me talkin' to him, he'd slap my ass no cap." I joked watching as she laughed and picked up her board ready to call the next patient. My face fell as she walked away, knowing that I was only partially joking. Chris had a tendency to be overprotective, no matter how much I tried to assure him differently. He's only put his hands on me once.....twice... okay it's been a few times. But it was harmless, he just has a very jealous side and I can't be mad at him for it. Some things were just left up for me not to understand, this was one of them. I quickly wiped my eyes, pushing the memory out of my head and grabbed the next clipboard, going back to my job.

8:18PM

Rain lightly fell outside as I walked into the kitchen to clean off my plate from my dinner. I'm used to eating alone now, Chris was never home when I made dinner.

I rinsed off the plate and other dishes that sat in there and placed them up to dry. After cleaning up a bit I reached into the cabinet for my wine glass.

I wasn't the biggest drinker but me and wine have had an interesting relationship to say the least. I opened my new favorite flavor and poured a glass, careful not to make a mess. I heard my phone ring in the living room as I made my way back to my spot on the large couch.

"Well hello baby sister that I haven't heard from." I slyly remarked, taking a good look at my sisters face. She rolled her eyes before saying, "I'm pretty sure I talked to you on your lunch break." I shrugged before taking a couple of sips from my glass. " I was calling because someone wanted to speak to you." She ran her hand through her straightened natural hair that flowed down her back. I rolled my eyes, instantly knowing who it was.

After minutes of shuffling around, his handsome face popped into the phone screen, his gorgeous smile appearing moments later.

"Damn I didn't think I'd ever get the chance to talk to you again." He said, his raspy voice sent chills up my spin but I had to play cool. " that wasn't necessarily the plan but , I see you're lucky day has arrived." I sipped from my glass again as he licked his lips preparing to speak again. "Ah you still got the lil' attitude I see, imma let'chu go own wit' yo' day then. Enjoy your night beautiful." His face disappeared and I let out a reliving sigh.

Though I'm still attracted to Chris, Caleb was definitely a sight to see. He had to be about 6'3 , freckled caramel complexion, and a smile to die for. He came up and introduced himself at Sanai's birthday party and if I could be honest he instantly captured my attention, something that has only happened with me and Chris. But I am faithful woman and couldn't give him the time of day, despite how bad I wanted to.

"Sis I'll talk to you tomorrow I gotta do homework,"Sanai's voice snapped me out my thoughts. I say my goodbyes and toss my phone on the couch beside me.I sighed before finishing the rest of my wine and slowly fell asleep in my spot..
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2:03AM

The sounds of keys in the door woke me out of my sleep. I sat up on the couch and was greeted by Chris's handsome face. He closed the door and locked it saying, " I thought you'd be in the bed by now."

Shockingly he didn't sound drunk, not even tipsy. " I fell asleep. You sound...normal today." He laughed a little before walking towards me. " I sound like this everyday, wha'chu mean?" I shook my head, not wanting to start him up. " I'm going up to bed." I stood up from my spot pulling down my shorts as I walked toward our bedroom. "You look good Lana." He commented , slightly grabbing my hand as I walked by him.

I flinched slightly, not used to him being this gentle. I looked at him in his eyes, remembering how soft his look was. " Thank you Chris , I didn't.. I didn't think you noticed." He smirked a little, saying, " I noticed everything about you Lana , it's hard not to." I found my self blushing, surprised by his charming behavior.

He pulled me into his arms, kissing my lips lightly. The butterflies exploded in my stomach as I wrapped my arms around him, taking in the moment of affection while it lasted. He slowly walked us toward the bedroom, lifting me up in his arms in the process. Though I knew this moment wouldn't last, I enjoyed it. I never knew when moments like this would occur.

I might as well take advantage of it while I could..

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Though it took FOREVER it's finally out ! Chapter 2 coming very soon 🤗