I've already mentioned Steven, my guy friend who I started talking to back in Fall 2017. Well, he's not just my best friend anymore; he actually became my boyfriend a few months back. He already knew about what I had gone through, believe me he was very angry at my ex for how he treated me. He went slow with me, and respected my feelings. I actually had a crush him back when we were kids, but that is a different story for a different time, should he give me his permission to write about him again.
Steven showed me how a man is supposed to treat the woman he loves. He encourages me and supports me with any decisions or dreams I have. He shows me every day how a relationship is supposed to go. And no, it doesn't involve any pain at all (shocker), instead it involves so much happiness and laughter and peace. He treats me gently and as if he truly cares about me. He is the exact opposite of Sawyer in every way, he's healthy for me.
Before, after dating Sawyer, I felt as if all relationships were just meant to bring harm to me. I was scared to ever step foot into another relationship. And at the beginning when I first began dating Steven, I was very cautious, I watched what I said and had my guard up nonstop. But, after a little while, I realized I didn't have to be on edge all the time, I didn't have to walk on egg shells with a man anymore. I didn't have to constantly be in a state of worry and fear. In fact, I could be myself, and I could laugh and smile again. I could love life. And most importantly, I could love myself, for all that I am.
I'm happy to say that I have successfully graduated from college and am currently looking for a teaching job. I am in an ever loving relationship, and I am in a state of pure happiness. I am loving life and myself. Every day I wake up, and I see how beautiful this world really is. I am so much happier and on better terms with my family. I see Steven at least once a week, sometimes more when he surprises me much to my great happiness. I have found myself again, and I am living my life as fully as possible. And I'm spending time with a man who truly loves me and whom I truly love in return. A man who makes me happy without fail, every day. I have hope.
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