memories never die

1-who I am

there is a girl 18 years old standing in front of a mirror looking at her reflection . a girl with long brown hair ,her hazel eyes are dark now show no emotion but sadness , if eyes can talk her eyes will scream to death to just put away the pain this girl felt . her skin , her lips are pale . her face shows no colour any more like the life just take all the colours of her face . her eyes had tears so much tears and refuse to let them run down her pale skin to show herself that she is strong girl and tell that to herself every night before sleep to wake up the other morning and some people come to make these tears to run down like falls and this girl to know that she is weak so weak to face this cruel life . this girl look at her half naked body to see bruises all over her body her pale body . she just take a shower trying to wash the pain away inside and outside . then she got in her bed and put her head on her billow that gets wet from her tears , her bruning tears . her eyes get tired from crying , her body gets tired from bullying , her soul gets tired from pain and she gets tired from life .

this girl is me . that's who i am.

the girl that have many memories ,painful memories and painful past painful secrets

the girl that doesn't have friends every one hates her and wish her death

the girl that has been called ugly . slut . whore . fat . nerd and so on but they don't know her past . they don't know anything

the girl who lost everything in life

the girl who lost the most important thing in a girl's life

the girl who got bullied

that's me i'm claire , claire collins but i just put this name away and my name now is claire smith no one knows that my last name is collins . i hate that name " first secret " my name . i've never heard about someone have secrets about their name but whatever

i have reason for everything. thats weird

i just love black because it is a sad colour just recognize sadness

i hate people and don't trust them because i didn't see or feel anything beautiful because of them i just feel pain

i hate mornings because everymorning i have to go to this shit what called school

hate hate hate

i just don't love anything

i fall asleep on my comfotable bed to wake up the other morning and live another painful day . but everything just started from that day . the day that everything starts to get weird but i just realised everything at the end . the day the secrets don't become a secrets anymore because everyone will knows everything . and from that day everything start to change .

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