Within The Lights. (Series)

Chapter 12 - So That's It?

"Macy, phone."

"Who is it?"

'Greyson, i think."

"Uh... No. No, no, no. Tell him I'm... taking a shower!" I yelled, running up the stairs and slamming the door to my room as fast as I could.

After what had happened atfter the KCA's 2 weeks ago, I cut off all communication between me and Greyson. He's called me so many times that Ive started to get hit by huge guilt waves that got stronger every day. Guilt that i hadn't stopped it. Guilt that I led him on. Guilt that i stopped talking to him afterwards. They've become so strong that i've started to get physically sick.

Like, stomach-flipping, nauseous guilt. The kind that makes you want to throw up. But I refused to talk to him until Cody gets back tomorrow. Until then, I'll have to keep avoiding Greyson.

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 "What do I do!?"

"Just talk to him. Tell him that you're sorry and it won't happen again."

"Taylor, he just got back from a month-long ptour in asia. I don't want to ruin his homecoming." I sighed.

"I know this isn't something you want to hear, but I'm gonna say it anyway. Chances are he's already suspicious because of how close you and Greyson have gotten lately, especially after Cody left. I watched the KCA's, if I didn't know any better I'd have thought you two were dating. He's probably gonna ask if you don't tell him, anyway."

I groaned. Sometimes i want to slap Taylor because she says things lke that. She calls it 'Keeping it real, I call it annoying.

"I guess you're right. So what doI do?"

"You talk to him."

"But you just said he'd talk to me."

"I said he'd talk to you if you didn't talk to him first. Which would be in your best interest because if you don't tell him first, he'll think he can't trust you."

"He's gonna think he can't trust me, anyway!"

"True, but then he'll have two reasons. At least if you tell him, you'll still have that small amount of trust."

"Do you think he'll dump me?"

She was silent for a minute.

I guess i'm smart enough to know the answer, and Taylor was smart enough not to say it.

"I don't know."

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Here goes.

I walked to the door and opened it, standing face-to-face with both Cody... And my fears.

"Cody... Hi." I forced a smile.

"I need to talk to you." He muttered, crosing his arms and using his height to make a point of looking down on me.

"Oh... Okay." I whispered. Way to jump right into it, Codes.

I stepped outside and looked up at Cody nervously. "What's up?"

"You know what's up." He spat.

I was expecting it, but i still flinched. "Cody-"

"What happened?"

"What do you mean?" I asked. Play dumb. Maybe he doesn't know.

Come on, Macy. Of course he knows. Now you just look stupid. Way to go.

"At the Kid's Choice Awards. What happened? With you, and... Him."

He spat the word Him through his teeth, as if the very thought of  Greyson disgusted him. 

"Nothing happened at the kids choice awards."

It wasn't an entire lie. I mean, nothing happened AT the KCA's, so to speak.

"Nothing?"

"Nothing." I nodded, unable to meet his gaze.

"Okay, so you say nothing happened AT the KCA's." He tilted his head to the side, a little cockily.

I nodded, still not looking him in the eyes.

"What about after the KCA's?"

There goes my loophole.

"I..." I started, finally looking at him.

He didn't look as angry as he sounded. He looked more... Hurt.

"Macy, you may be just short of a genius, but I know you. Stop trying to cover it up. What happened?"

"I'm sorry!" I cried out. I wasn't expecting myself to burst out like that. "It just... Happened! I dodn't mean for anything to happen!"

I looked down at my feet. I couldn't look at him.

After a while of silence, she shifted his feet. And I brought myself to look up at him.

He ran a hand through his hair and shook his head.

"I'm sorry." I whispered.

"Sorry won't take it back, will it?" He spat, then turned on his heels and shoved his hands in his pockets, walking back to the end of the driveway. He took his phone out and dialed a number, probably calling his mom to pick him up.

"I'm sorry." I whispered, opening the door.

I cast one look over my shoulder at Cody. He looked at me too, shook his head sadly and shoved his hands back into his pockets.

So that's it?

It's just gonna end like this?