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   The words "maybe you don't like guys" played in my head over and over again. What if I don't like guys? What if I like girls? Oh my god! I figured it out, I'm lesbian.

   How do I tell everyone?  What if they don't like me anymore? Well then they don't deserve me. No I don't deserve them. "I'll support you no matter what." I remember Ella's words from earlier. I'll still have someone. I won't be alone. Of course I won't be alone, I'll have my girlfriend. Wait who even is my crush.

Josie? No. Ella? No. Acadia? No. Leontyne? No. Whitney? No. Mercy? No, she's just a really good friend. Charlotte? No. Definitely not the geeky group. Never the popular group. Well the extreme popular. Nope. The loners? No. Maybe I'm not lesbian.

(E=Ella)
(L=Luna)

E: Hey. How r u
L: confused
E: wdym
L: can we talk in person sometime? It'll be easier
E: sure, whatever you need
L: thanks. Goodnight
E: night 💕

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Morning
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E: hey any better?
L: sleep helped but didn't make me any smarter
E: still confused
L: yep
E: hey wanna maybe hang out Monday after school as long as we don't have loads of homework
L: sure.
E: k. Ttyl the others are waking up
L: ok. Btw you actually wrote are
E: ikr I never do that
L: bye
E: bye

How do I say this? "Hey Ella I like girls!" I'm not that crazy. Do I even have a sexuality? Maybe I'm queer, cause I'm questioning myself. I guess one really never knows.

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Monday
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"Hey Luna!" Ella came running down the hall for me. "Hey" I said with a smile. "Oh um we can go to mine if you want. We just have to call it a study session. Which also gives us an excuse to start our English essays." Ella suggested. "Cool." Let me get my stuff and I'll meet you at the front door. "See ya in a few" Ella called down the hall.

"So you said you wanted to talk." We sat in the same spot confessions happened the other day. "I think I'm a lesbian." I plainly stated. "Ok." Ella's voice urged me to continue on. "And I hate Sebastian, that was a lie. I have no interest in boys. I find girls cute, and I just realized this and you're the first person I've told. And I don't know how to deal with it or really what to do." I rambled on.

     "Luna calm down." Ella grabbed my hand. "We got this." She paused. "Do you think you like someone?" "I don't know. I haven't really thought about that yet. Like I've had some weird feelings about people but I don't know if it's a crush." "Well that's something for you to figure out. Test yourself, it'll come to you."

     I paused before answering. "Mercy. I feel different about her than anyone else." "Okay so maybe you like Mercy. She's really great. And we're all friends and we know her well, try talking to her about it, she won't judge."

     "Maybe. Anyway wanna start the essay so my parents don't kill me?" "Sure." Ella laughed. "I'll get us some snacks."

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Hey so I've started this story cuz I need a break from fanfics sometimes. Anyway I'm not meaning to offend anyone in some way and if you feel offended by my writing just tell me and I'll change the wording to something less offensive. Also considering this book is about sexuality and coming out I'd like to say I'm straight and have no experience with it but I support the LGBTQ2+ community. So yeah that's about all my blurb is about.