I often wonder what it would be like in those last few moments before you die. When all dignity has been lost and you flail like a baby realizing the mistake you have made. Everyone wants to die until the few minutes before death and they find every reason to continue on with life whether they want to or not. It's science.
Sadly, I haven't experienced death but I think I have a pretty good idea what it will be like. I'm not like those other people who believe it will be peaceful and wonderful. I know death will be extremely painful and horrific and then you go to hell. When you kill someone you go to hell (yourself included). All you can hope for is you get hit by a bus so it will be quick and if you have Jesus you will still go to heaven.
I don't like not knowing when I am going to die. I guess you could say I have a fear of NOT committing suicide. I like having control over my life.
