Agent Arizona(Red vs Blue){Under Major Editing}

Memories and Pain

I sighed tapping my finger on the table in the mess hall wondering what to do other than drink coffee. My mind wondered though to an area that it shouldn't wonder to, my past from Reach.

    ~Daydream~

I was resting in my room doing nothing but my "brother" had other plans that night, he slammed my door open yanking me off the bed onto the floor. My eyes widened in fear as he grabbed my hair pulling me out into the hallway, I yelped in pain as he yanked me harder. And what I saw in the living room was my family staring at me with hate in their eyes, I heard my brother start yelling at me for being lazy, worthless, loser, nobody, and having no life. Tears streamed down my face realizing they ALL hated me not just my brother and my sister even my mom who I thought loved me, he slammed me on the ground kicking my stomoche hard enough to hear a crack go in the room. I screamed in pain blood rising to my mouth already, and they just watched as he kept beating me never stopping him to tell him enough. I then realized they want me dead, I shakly stood up grunting in pain. My vision started turning red and I didn't control myself as I dodged his punchs and ran past him grabbing a knife I hid in the house, I wielded it pointing at his throat. "You should of thought of when I'd finally snap." I said to him my voice filled with cold steel laced in deeply, I didn't think when I leaned foward slashing at him as he dodged. I 'tched and jumped over him using him as a catapolt and lundged for my sister first stabbing her quickly in the chest four times then jumped out of the way when my mom tried slicing me with her knife.

     "You shouldn't have done that." We both said at the same time. With no hesitation we both jumped foward and sliced, I made a more precise aiming for her vital points as she just sliced across my collar bone, then my cheek, and finally across my eye. I went foward grabbing her wrist and twisting it so that she'd drop her knife, I grabbed it and backed up. My back hit the wall as she came closer so I decided it was all or nothing, I threw both knifes one hit her stomoche the other hit her chest. She slid to the ground her eyes slowly turning blank and glassy, I quickly dodged a punch that came my way my hair just waving around his fist. I crouched and slid one foot out doing a roundhouse knocking him down but when he landed he grabbed a knife sticking out of my moms body and sliced my arms and body as fast as he could. I growled and tackled him to the ground again my hands wrapping themselves over his neck, I sqeezed tightly as his face started turning purple. I let go and quickly grabbed my knife piercing his chest multiple times.

      I breathed heavily letting the knife slip from my hands and let it clatter to the ground, I looked down seeing blood everywhere on me. I choked on air finally coming out of my red haze, "No.. No! FUCK!!" I screamed panicking as I backed up into the wall. Tears came out and I just kept choking on my vomit holding it back. I ran to my room ripping my clothes off switching to jeans, sneakers, a long sleeved shirt and my hoodie. Grabbing a bag I filled it with everything I needed, I walked around the house gathering all the knifes and the handgun my mom had. I walked to the door and didn't look back as I walked out going somewhere to live at, probably the woods or streets.

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I ran down the street dodging a bullet that came my way, "Haha fuckers missed!" I yelled out jumping on the fence grinning cockly at them then jumped down running away out of sight.

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I gasped as I was thrown into a wall dropping my bag, they laughed as I slid to the ground. My vision started turning red agian making me giggle, "Hehe... HAHAHAHA!" I laughed loudly my laughes echoing in the ally. Blood soon was everywhere, they didn't have enough time to run away from the beast inside of me who quickly killed them.

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I soon was able to control that side but realized its who I really am, a killer who only looks out for herself. I talked frequintly with my insane side arguing about what she's made me done...

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"This is all your fault! You killed them!" I yelled out into the forest, ~No I never killed anyone. It was all you, I just 'helped' you unlock who YOU really ARE.~ the voice echoed out. ~And together we could be unstoppable.~ It said I felt a touch on my shoulder making me move away quickly. "SHUT UP AND GET OUT OF MY HEAD!" I yelled out punching a tree repeatidly until my knuckles were a bloody mess. "Just get out." I cried tears coming out my voice wavering as I slid to the ground.

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I hated all those years when I killed my family I was only thirteen, I lived on the streets and in the forest for two years.

  ~Out of daydream~

Tears left my eyes quickly when my thoughts went there and I on instinct reached out for something sharp to stab myself with. I forgot the Director was always watching me when suddenly men came out of no where and grabbed my arms. I faught them off and tried to grab something sharp to kill myself with, "Restrict her!" The Director yelled out. "No! Let me go! Let me go!" I yelled out yanking my arms away from them, I heard whispers coming from an area and I looked seeing everyone from the team watching wondering what was happening. "Let me go! Just let me kill MYSELF!" I yelled out my hair fell out coming in waves covering my face. "Put her in her cell gentlemen." He said waving his hand, "NO! Don't put me in there! She'll come out, don't let her control me!" I screamed my tears streaming fast down my face.

   "And why shouldn't we?" The Director said annoyance in his voice, "You should let me kill myself to atone for the sins I've made." I growled out. "And what sins are those that you have to go to such lengths to kill yourself?" He said losing his pactience.

  "The murder of my family, thugs, and innocent lives." I said my gaze meeting his not even looking at the team but I saw that they were escorted out earlier before they could here anything important. "You do NOT have permission to suicide and must stay confined to the ship, no missions, no joy rides, nothing." He said his voice final. "Yes sir." I said to him, he made a hand movement and they let me go.

    I slipped to the ground and sat there staring at nothing, something touched my arm making me look up to see a worried York, North, and Wash. I guess they were let back in, I looked down not wanting to talk. "Guess she's just a crazy bitch." I heard South say, I clenched my fist tightly my nails cutting into my hands causing them to bleed. I stood up using the table to help me but the blood on my hands got on it, I ignored what everyone said and walked towards South. "You really want to spar me now? Hehe you're bad luck." I grinned my eyes showing no life at all. "Bring it bitch." She growled. I smirked walking out, "Until later." I said walking out heading out to get my armor on.

We stood in the training room grabbing weapons on the table set out, as everyone went into the viewing room. I grinned sadistcly in my helmet, did I forget to mention I got my A.I out of my head. I didn't need anymore voices in my head. F.I.L.S.S put the tables away then started the count down to when we start fighting. "...5..4..3..2..1 Round begin." She finished off giving a goodluck letter sent to my helm, I grinned giving a chuckle. She ran towards me going to punch for my head, I fainted left then went right. I jumped twisting my body to kick her on the back knocking her foward, I giggled bouncing on my feet while punching the air fully pumped to beat the shit out of her. She growled annoyed.

    She grabbed her smg's and started firing I of course ran around dodging easily, I ran towards her then rolled at the last second getting past her. I kicked her legs out from under her and got on top my hands on their own wrapped around her neck, I tightened my grip. The flashes came back, of me choking my brother, choking thugs, and choking innocent people. I screamed letting go backing away, "GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!" I screamed out ripping my helmet off. ~It's ok Zero, its just our SPECIAL memories coming back again~ It said to me, "NO! Shut up! I don't want those memories!" I yelled covering my ears. ~Oh but dear Zero they will always be with YOU~ It chided evilly the touching feeling coming on my shoulder, "No! Get out of MY head and stop touching ME!" I argued out loud.

   I got up running out of the training room after grabbing my helmet and ran to my room, I closed my door as tears started coming again. I covered my ears trying to keep myself sane even if I already lost my sanity

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Heres your guys update, sorry it took so long. Someones borrowing all my RvB so this is just a filler chapter. Sorry if its really dark and everything but hey whatev's. Anyways I hope you guys enjoyed and please read my other stories, bye~