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Jimin's P.O.V~

     I'm currently sitting on my bed watching how mine and my best friend's last interview went. There are many moments I never even realized until now. Like Jin and Namjoon, they were constantly watching each other. I giggle at the sight of Jin blushing when Namjoon touches his thigh. You can say I ship Namjin hardcore. I look at the time and jump up. Shit, I need to get ready. All of us have to go live in half an hour and I look like a mess. I go to my dresser and pull out a black long sleeve shirt and white skinny jeans. Also some underwear. I walk out of my room and make my way to the bathroom. Opening the door Jiminie!" I turn around and see Tae, as happy as can be.
"Yes?" I ask confused.
"You realize we're going live soon right?" He says looking me up and down giggling. I sigh.
"Yes Tae, that's why I'm going to shower." He giggles again and runs away. I shake my head and walk into the bathroom shutting the door behind me. Starting the shower and getting undress I get in. Feeling the warmth of the water hitting my skin instantly relaxes me. Taking showers is one of my favorite things to do, it takes my mind off of all the stress. I work extremely hard and when things don't go exactly how I want them I immediately feel like a failure. The thing is I try my best to hide my emotions from others but sometimes they can tell when some things are off. Especially Yoongi, out of everyone he's the one who's always there. To comfort me when I'm completely and emotionally overwhelmed. He's my fa-.
"JIMIN! Get your big ass out here!" I hear who sounds like Yoongi banging on the door. Wow, I'm surprised he's actually awake. I turn the shower off, dry off, and get dressed. Looking in the mirror I still feel ugly and gross. I don't know exactly what's been going on with me lately but my insecurities have been getting worse. Fixing my hair I walk out of the bathroom and into the living room sitting on the couch in between Jin and Yoongi.
"Finally," Yoongi says rolling his eyes and scoffing.
"Oh shut it!" I yell punching his arm. He looked at me and smirked.
"Just wait, I'm going to get you back." He said almost as a whisper to where only I could hear him. I feel my cheeks heat up and I look down at my hands that were resting on my thighs. Why am I feeling embarrassed all of the sudden?
"Good afternoon Army!" Namjoon yells at the phone. All of us say hello, smiling huge for our Army. The Fans go crazy commenting on our live stream.
"Who's you're favorite in the house?" Jin reads out loud. "Well, mine is definitely my Namjoonieeee." He says hugging Namjoon and smiling like crazy.
"Aweee." I coo at the two. Namjoon was currently blushing.
"Well, mine is the ray of sunshine over there Hoseok!" Namjoon says making Jin frown and removes himself from him. It looked as if Namjoon whispered something in Jin's ear but I couldn't tell.
"Well, mine is Jimin." I look over at a smiling Yoongi and I blush. I already know I'm his favorite but today it feels different than any other time he's said it to me.
"Well, you're my favorite too!" I say resting my head on his shoulder. He smiles and touches my hand.
"Tae!" Jungkook says smiling.
"As you are mine Kookie!" Tae says excitedly jumping on Jungkook's Lap. All of us answer a few more questions and say bye. Getting off our live.
I sink into the couch sighing. Obviously loudly cause everyone was looking at me with a concerned look.
"W-what?" I stutter out. Whenever I stutter it makes me feel bad and like I'm an idiot.
"Is something wrong Hyung?" Jin asks touching my shoulder.
"Uh, no everything's fine. I'm all g-good." I fake a smile. I know they all can look right through me. "I'm tired, I think I'm going to go take a nap." I awkwardly laugh getting up and entering my room. Sitting on my bed I wipe the sweat that was forming on my forehead under my hair. Fuck, what's wrong with you Jimin? I lay my head on my pillow and close my eyes. I hear the door open and I just keep them closed. Maybe if they see my eyes are closed they'll go away.
"Jimin." I hear a soft voice say. "Jimin I know you're awake now look at me!" I open my eyes and see Yoongi. I sit up and he moves on my bed close to me. He touches my legs. "What's the matter? You've been distant and very off lately with everyone. We can all see it." I look into his eyes. I can tell that my feeling this way is really affecting him. If it's affecting him that means it must affect everyone else too.
"I'm s-sorry Yoongi," I say feeling tears in my eyes. "I honestly have no clue why I'm feeling like this. I think it's because I'm pushing myself way too hard and I feel like if I screw up then I'm letting you guys down. And I don't want to do that. I'm mentally tired. It's like ever since this week I feel like I need to do better and work more. I'm feeling very self-conscious. I can't explain why I just d-do." As I'm pouring all of this out I realize I'm crying. I'm crying like a dam just broke and all of the water is just bursting everywhere. Yoongi pulls me into his chest.
"Jimin, you shouldn't feel that way. Everything you do is amazing. You don't need to put so much pressure on yourself when you already do such amazing things when you're not even trying. If it makes you feel any better I fucking envy you. I wish I was like you, in so many ways. You're absolutely perfect. You're not the only one who has felt this way, I know I've felt like this many times and I'm sure everyone else has too. Also, you shouldn't feel insecure about yourself. You're very handsome and I definitely love the way you are. So just stop adding so much to yourself. I don't want you keeping it all in and then one day exploding and it is a complete and utter mess." Yoongi says making me cry even more. I wrap my arms around his waist. I look at him and see tears running down his face.
"Thank you do much Hyung. I really appreciate you always being there for me. But you don't need to cry." I wipe away his tears. He leans down and kisses my cheek.
"I'll always be here, no matter what." Those words did something to me. I felt my heart go wild.
     Yoongi and I lay down and cover-up. Soon falling asleep.