"Mom! it's still too early, don't wake me up yet. Give me five minutes." I told my mom as I intentionally want to be late for school. Jason's going to be the one marking the late students today. I can't wait to be late. I want to see his brown eyes and messy hair. I want to hear his voice as he calls out my name, "Madi".
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I have been in love with Jason since I was in 5th grade. Never did we talk formally or hang out like those other friends. They say he was nice, smart and talented. I really didn't care about those kind of stuff. I just see him for him.Sometimes I see him alone in school, sitting down in those benches looking sad. I always have the urge to sit beside him but that would be a giveaway, wouldn't it? I couldn't just sit beside him in that particular bench, well because, there are a lot of benches in school THAT IS EMPTY. So why sit there, right?
Anyway, he has been the love of my life. They told me that I don't need him; that I was pretty enough to love anyone else I would want to. But why couldn't it just be Jason? Is his brown eyes not attracted to my beauty. Am I not that pretty to him? Am I not interesting for him? What the hell is wrong with him not liking me?
It has been 4 years since the day I had a crush on him. I am now in my Junior year and he is at his Senior year. This would be the last year that I could see him. This is my last chance to go talk to him.
First day of class started and I have been late to school. Since our school system is out of the norm, Senior students should take notes of the late comers instead of the teachers. And, just as I suspected, Jason is the one noting the late comers. Only few were late me; a Freshman girl and boy, three Sophomore boys and Johanna, Jason's girlfriend which is also a Senior. WASN'T IT A COINCIDENCE? NOT!
As Jason was noting the late comers, Johanna was flirting with Johann in front of us. We were disgusted at her, she's not the girl for Johann. All of Jason's friends were shock when they knew about them. Johanna was a little Senior students, she is pretty but her attitude is not. She's an attention whore and a social climber. Teachers LOVE her! she's rich, by the way, and gives lots of gifts for the teacher because that how she gets her grades. Such a pity girl but to be frank, she's one lucky bitch.
"Johanna's been such a pain for Jason", I think to myself. Then I just realize that I'm staring at them too long. Johanna gave me this mean, bitchy look then kissed Jason on the cheeks. Jason just smiled to her, forcibly. He then looked at me but then I looked away in the fear that he'll see me drooling at him, again.
I went straight to class after Jason checked my attendance. I went in with excitement, but then saw the class sleeping, drooling on their papers. The teacher lectured about the introduction to Trigonometry; angles, cosines, sines, and the likes. First class of the day and I get this boring lecture. But then I took notes. I'm an honor student, and being an honor is such a hassle because teachers think that I should always be perfect. Talk about pressure. We ended up talking about the unit circle and it's finally recess.
I saw Jason from afar. I see him with Johanna and he's friends. They sat on this table exclusively for them. Jason, Stephen, Garett and Andrey were the only ones sitting there before, but then Johanna came. I know Stephen, Garett and Andrey didn't like Johanna, never did they ever like her. I know this because Andrey told me. Andrey and I are friends since my Freshman days and he knows about me liking Jason, and he likes the idea of that. BUT THEN, Andrey couldn't help me get Jason because Andrey believes that if Jason likes a girl, he'll get her by himself. SO MUCH FOR BEING FRIENDS ANDREY!
I always go alone in recess time. I went in the waiting area alone because that's really my spot then the unthinkable happened Jason came. I looked at him and he looked back, I looked away immediately. I ate my sandwich alone, thinking that he didn't saw me. He went near me and told me, "Ham and cheese sandwich? Can I have some?".
And I couldn't respond because of my shock but then I answered, "Sure!"
He ate the other half of my sandwich, "This is delicious, I love ham and cheese, mom used to make this for me when I was little," then he stopped.
"I could make you another one tomorrow if you'd like," I told him keeping the urge of shouting inside.
"Yes! I would love that, you're name's Madi, right? I'm Jason, maybe you know me already, anyway, this is just a small school."
"I know you," started giggling, "yeah, it's just a small school," I repeated.
"I should leave now, maybe Johanna's looking for me already," looking corner-to-corner, "I'll be expecting that sandwich tomorrow Madi, thanks for that little conversation we had."
And I just waved goodbye.
My emotions just exploded into milions of pieces. I want to shout but I couldn't. Instead, I got my back and shouted it all. That was just unexpected, and I couldn't explain the feelings inside.
(TO BE CONTINUED...)
