Once upon a Dream

Butterfly tattoo

Part 1

My husband is in jail and I just found out about how my husband and best friend have been doing things behind my back with eachother all the way up to two days before he went to jail.

I wish it weren't true but they both have admitted to their wring doings and I'm pretty much devastated yet beginning to have a fuck it attitude with a side of I no longer give a damn. I have told her it's time for her to find somewhere else to stay so Im dropping her off to meet her uncle at a local gas station in town. She been crying and packing on and off all day.

As far as my husband goes... I have been ignoring his phone calls all day long. I don't know who it bothers the most him or his family. They have to hear it from him when I don't answer. But right now I'm so hurt I just no longer care.

Soon it will be just me in my house all alone. I don't like being by myself but I keep telling myself I need to get used to it.

Part 2

It has only been about a week and I'm still not caring to talk to my husband. My hurt has turned in to anger. I've gotten back into a routine finally and getting used to sleeping alone at night. I do still miss him but not like before.

I got a phone call today from my my husbands cousin whom he don't care for nor does she care for him.

She asks if she can come stay with me for alittle while till she can get on her feet. I think twice about but honestly could use the company so I agree to let her come stay.

Everything seems to be going well.

We have had fun being silly and just doing girl stuff. I've  met her new boyfriend and he seems to be pretty cool. Him and I get along and I learn he's a tattoo artist and he offers give me my first tattoo.

Part 3

Usually I would never entertain the idea of getting a tattoo especially when I'm already 31. However this new side to me says who cares if it will piss your husband off , he damn sure wasn't worried about pissing me off. Getting a tattoo. I think I will.

Since I'm seriously considering getting a divorce I have my new friend draw up a butterfly tat since butterflies represent freedom. Yea I know it may seem crazy but seeming crazy was the last thing I am worried about at the moment.

Part 4

So we decide to go spend the weekend with her boyfriend out at his house. Its way out in the country and seems like a nice little get away.

He has a four wheeler and private pond. It seems like a nice little country get away. He cooks dinner for us and then draws up my tat. We decide to do tomorrow since it's late and we are all tired.

The next day I wake and I'm so excited about getting my first tattoo. I'll admit I was a little nervous, not knowing what to expect. I think just the sound of the gun is what seemed scary. As he started laying everything out on the table I was thinking should I go through with this?  But not long after I decided yes I wanted this tattoo. I wear shorts a lot in the summer and down here in Louisiana the summers get super hot. So I want to get my tat on my top outward thigh kinda in a angle.

I think it's a different place to get one and I like the way the ink off the wax paper looked there.

Come to my surprise the tattoo didn't hurt at all... not even a little bit.

Right towards the end he tells me we're almost done, my phone rings.

Its a call from my husband from jail.

This time I answer.