Hatred

Chapter 23

Taehyung : I told you all that she wasn’t as okay as she looked.

Silently, I looked at the members, who were all starring at me, a terrified look on their face. None of them were moving or approaching me, as if they were scared of me. Scared that I could hit them or scream like I did a few minutes earlier.

And so was I.

Seokjin, that was still holding me, released his grip a little, letting me take the breath I needed so much.

As soon as I felt his arms leaving my body, my legs abandoned me and I collapsed on the ground. My arms were shaking, as well as my hands, my chin, my lips.

How weak I was.

Outside the sound of my sobs, no noise could be hear in the studio. Everyone was trying to understand.

And so was I.

But I hated it. I hated seeing them looking at me as if I was crazy, as if I needed them.

I don’t need anybody. I can handle this alone.
I have to show this.

I tried to stand up but the pain in my legs stopped me, making me frown. The others noticed too. I saw Hoseok about to help me.
He won’t approach me.

Ignoring the ache that was flowing through my body, I forced myself to stand up while trying to keep a normal face expression.

They noticed it too.

After taking a deep breath, I bowed 90° in front of the group, surprising them all.

Y/N : I’m truly sorry for what just happened. I guess this incident has been caused by my lack of seep, since I only rested for 4 or 5 hours. Please forget everything, or at least forget as much as possible and try to ignore the things you remember. I will personally do my best to sleep enough when I’ll have the time to, and I’ll make sure to not sleep at work anymore. Once again, I’m sorry for my behavior.

Jungkook : Don’t worry it okay... But don’t you want to rest, at least for one hour ??

Y/N : No, it’s okay, I don’t need to rest. I think it would be better to continue what we were doing. Let’s not loose time anymore, if you don’t mind of course, I answered with a smile.

Namjoon : Actually, we already finished everything...

Jimin : Yeah, we wanted to ask you if you wrote everything we said, but we noticed you were shaking a little, and crying too... Yoongi-hyung tried to touch your arm but you became craz- I mean really weird at this moment. You tried to hit us and when Seokjin hyung caught you, you began to scream and all and all... Until waking up, I guess.

I looked at Jimin, my eyes widened and with a bewildered face. Did it mean that the person poking my arm in my nightmare or whatever it could have been...

It was Yoongi ??

Trying to keep my emotions inside and keeping a straight face, I looked at him.

Y/N : D-Did I hurt you ?? I asked, cursing at myself for stuttering.

Yoongi : Not so hard, it wasn’t that painful, he said smiling. His action made me notice a very small bruise on his bottom lip. Did I do that ??

Seokjin : Anyway, we finished all we had to do today, I’ll go home and prepare a Vlive.

Namjoon : Can I join you ??

Jimin : I also want to be in, Seokjin hyung.

Jin : Of course, you can come. I can record an EatJin with some guests. Let’s go now, we need to prepare the food before the live.