Stay

Chapter 3

Watching those videos on YouTube, made me felt quite sleepy. Soon I was fast asleep leaving my phone lying on the bed while the video was still ongoing. Suddenly, my beauty sleep was disturb when I heared my name was called by someone too familiar. I quickly open my eyes and there I am, laying my head on top of a hospital bed and seeing my father was lying there,calling my name for several times now. Tears start rolling down from my eyes and I keep repeating myself that, “this is not real.” until I found a pair of scissors on a coffee table nearby and immediately took it and stab myself right on my belly to “end it right here, right now”. Soon blood came gushing down from my wounded stomach all the way to my bare feet, feeling the life gradually flowing out of me before falling into a dark abyss.
-

Ughh it seems I can't move any of my limbs as soon as I woke up. The pain really felt like I was stabed a millionth times on the body eventhough all of it was just another nightmare to pass the night. Mom came running through the staircase and enter my room with the speed of light as soon as she heard my scream's of pain calling out to her.Out of panicked she quickly called the ambulance upon seeing my current condition. “They will be here in 10 minutes sweetie.” she said assuringly while holding my hand tightly to ease me down. But the next thing I knew, I was once again swallowed by darkness and woke up on a hospital bed when I finally regain my consciousness. I turn my head to the side and saw my mom, laying her head beside me. Sleeping. “Mom..” I tried to nudge her a bit to wake her up. Guess that work, cause my mom was wide awake throwing billions of question at me. “ARE YOU OKAY?!?! DOES IT STILL HURTS!?!? I THOUGHT I'M GONNA LOSE YOU!!” she look at me still having panic written all over her face. “I'm okay...” the voice that had left my chapped lips was barely a whisper to be heard. “What happened?”. “You fainted...from all of the exhaustion last night according to the doctor.... did you had the same nightmare again?”. I turn the other way and look out the window, clearly knowing my answer will remain the same as always. So why bother answering it, when the dream earlier was left there fresh in my mind every time it occurs. The room was left silent once more until mom decided to continue her "motherly lectures" “The doctor said that you we're caught in a sleep paralysis from all those shocks you've receive,and I'm worried that it will be bad for your mental health especially if it goes on all over again in the near future.”

“Even the doctor advised me, to keep you as far as possible from stress pressures, I do hope you could take this as a solid reason for you to move on now, and leave that lonely shell of yours to make some friends to keep you company by creating more beautiful memories to cherish rather than sulking over those memories in the past. Hmm? Surely your father will be happy too, to see his only daughter finally getting the joy she deserved.”

“Guess I'll be here for a while....” I said to myself.