August 28th 2011
Nokia Theater, Los Angeles
MTV VMAs
B E Y O N C É
« Beyoncé you're on in 10 mins ! »
I nodded as I kept rubbing my tummy with my hand. No more hiding, the truth's going to be known today! I'm so excited to share this with the world, to share me and my husband's fruit.. I'm so happy.
Jay : Baby don't do too much if you feel like you're tired just stop okay ?
Me : Don't worry babe, I got this.
I pecked his lips and went on stage to perform my hit « Love On Top ». I'm excited and scared at the same time because she's here. She will know at the same time as everyone else that I'll have a baby soon.
When I say she you know who I'm talking about. Rihanna. I've tried to keep in touch with her but with my job I didn't have so much time for texting. I then started to know Jay Z and fell in love with him. I don't even know why. Then we got married and now I'm having a child with him.
When she knew that I got married to Jay Z, she was furious and I understood perfectly. She called me out with all the names y'all could imagine, she was just so hurt. And I was hurt too, because I did betray her. Months later she became famous because of her singing skills I never knew and got signed by my husband, Jay Z.
I avoided her. I couldn't meet her and see the pain in her eyes, the pain I caused, the pain I was the source of. Then she got in couple with this guy, Chris Brown. I seriously was mad but I couldn't do nothing, I started this. Hearing the press saying they are the cutest couple ever made me even sicker.
I positioned myself , ready for my performance.
« MTV
There's a time when music just made you feel so good
Tonight I want you to stand up on your feet
I want you to feel love that grew inside me.. HEY ! »
There we go. I performed like I always do. My singing was on point, I wasn't tired at all, I was doing what I love.
During the performance I didn't see her, meaning she didn't come. She maybe knew that I was going to perform... I can't blame her. I can only blame myself.
At the end of the performance, I dropped the mic and unbuttoned my jacket. I rubbed my tummy just like before, smiling widely. From the corner of my eye I could see Kanye being Kanye with Jay. That made me laugh as I got off the stage.
Jay was waiting for me outside with a big ass smile on his lips. I kissed him with passion and love, as Kanye and his bimbo ass wife Kim made their way to us.
Kanye : Aaiiiight miss Carter is pregny !
Me : Yup yup broo
Kim : Congratulations
Me : Thank you
I smiled politely to her even though I don't like her. My mom would've been proud of me if she was here.
Jay : Are you tired ?
Me : Yessss a lot. My feet hurt.
I pout as he said goodbye to Kanye and Kim. I hugged Kanye and made the kiss with Kim and we got in the car.
Jay : I'm so happy now.. I can wait for the baby to be born !
Me : Me too.. I feel like it's a girl because she isn't really kicking and stuffs yet
Jay : It's a boy maaan! Don't make my baby a girl pleaaaase God I love you you know I pray everyday so my baby will be a grown man, amen
I laughed and kicked his shoulder jokingly and felt my phone buzzing, signaling a text message.
Rihanna Fenty :
Congratulations Mrs Carter.
I was feeling so bad now. I don't even know what to respond without hurting her more than I did.
Sent :
Thank you, Rihanna. Hope you're doing well.
Rihanna Fenty :
I'm doing as well as I can after two heartbreaks.
Culpability took over me as I pushed myself more into my seat. I am such a monster.. She doesn't deserve this. She deserves way more, all she wanted was the best for me..
Sent :
I am so sorry Rihanna. I know I did you wrong, but all I can say or do is apologizing. I have been a monster, I'm aware of that.. Everything you'll say about me you'll have the right to say, because I have been a bitch to you. I'm so sorry. It comes from the bottom of my heart.
Rihanna Fenty :
You let me down when I needed you the most..You left me like a piece of shit just for him. You made me think I'm flaw just because you weren't consistent. Good luck with you're family and good night. 😴
Jay : Who are you texting ?
Me : U-uh Solange. My sister.
Jay : You have a sister ?
Duh nigga, duh.
Me : Yes I told you that when I left my mother she was pregnant of my sister and she's Solange.
Jay : Oh, right. Got it
It was about time. I love this dude but he's so slow sometimes. I hope my child won't have his intelligence or I'll be damned.
Ten minutes later we arrived to our house. It wasn't enormous but it was big enough for me and my husband and my soon to be born child. I don't really like big houses because it can't keep a family together at all. I prefer small homes. It's better.
I made my way to the bedroom where Jay massaged my feet for me. I thanked him and got in my sleeping nuisette ready to sleep. I took my makeup off and made two braids with my hair. The two braids she founded cute.
Jay : Babe I'm going out to Kanye's house okay?
Me : What are you going to do there? Isn't he with his wife?
Jay : No we are going to watch the football game
Me : ... Okay but don't come back too late
Jay : Yeah. See you
He pecked my lips and went out. Sometimes I think he's cheating on me. But then I brush that idea off because, who would cheat on Beyoncé?
I brushed my teeth and went to bed. I couldn't stop reading the sms of me and Rihanna again and again. I feel so bad.
Sent :
I'm so sorry, Robyn. Can we meet? To talk .. about .. us? Please let me see you and apologize in person. Please. Have a blessed night.
Tears couldn't stop falling from my eyes. I'm a monster. I'm a traitor.. She doesn't deserve this. My sobbing slowly turned into light snores as I let myself fall on Morphee's hands...
