Waiting in a Garden of Roses

h u r t

Fuck man,
This shit hurts.
I knew caring was a bad idea,
I knew I would get hurt

But I did that shit anyway.

And I want to be mad,
And I want to hate you.
But how can you hate the one thing in your life that makes you think there is hope for you after all.

That maybe all the shit you've been though has been for a reason.
That maybe one day you will be able to look in the mirror and not hate what you see.
That maybe one day someone will love you and all your flaws.

But right now,
I still feel like I'm too messed up for anyone to truly care for me.
And maybe thats life,
and maybe I have to eventually get over myself and hide that part of me.
The part that's too fucked up for anyone to ever love.