To The Roof

stress

Chapter 3

"You got me smoking cigarettes
I’m in Stress baby
sumikkwak makhyeo ojanha
gaseumi dugeundae
geunde neol tteoollilsurok baby"

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Their rooftop was pretty much simple with just a few things on it even then it was the most relaxing place out of their whole dorm they didn't bother decorating it much as none of them had enough time to sit and relax. There were 3 clothes drying racks in one of the corners and 2 benches facing the open side of the roof. Even though they had bulbs outside the moonlight was bright enough to show the girl lifelessly seating on the bench.
She was drunk, exhausted and her body looked dead tired. She wasn't wearing a lot of makeup yet her eyes were swollen and her eye makeup was smudged. it looked like the girl had been crying for a while now. Taeyeon approached her with worried eyes. "Hyoyeon-ah" she was shocked as she saw a beer can in one hand and an unused cigarette in the other there were 3-4 empty cans of beer lying next to her, a half case of beer on one side of the bench and an open cigarette box next to her.
The girl in front gave no reach which made the leader walk to the girl and grab the cigarette out of her hand "ya what the heck are you doing?" The girl didn't respond and still looked zoomed out "Kim Hyoyeon I'm talking to you"
"Why is it so difficult?"
"What's so difficult?"
"...."(she puts her head down to hide her tears)
"Hyoyeon you know you can talk to us about anything right...” "I mean if you share it might be less painful and if you don't want to talk to others for whatever reason you can always take a chance and talk to me I know we don't do a lot of the 'deep talks' but it might be less awkward talking to me about it"
"Awkward??? Ya right" both of them laughed at the thought of being awkward since awkward is the work which is connected to both of them from the time they were in sm together.
"But seriously what’s going on, do you want to talk about it??”
"Taeyeon it's sweet that you care but I myself don't know what’s going on"
"Hey, it’s okay if you don't know what’s wrong but at least let me know what all this is about???”
"Where to begin from???”
"Start from the beginning of this stressful side of yours... you know all this alcohol and cigarette won't do much"
"It kills the pain ..... For a short time but it feels good”
"It also kills your body Hyo you’re an idol you shouldn't .....And smoking? Are you serious? You’re a dancer for god sake you know what smoking can do to you right? " "Taeyeon what have I done to be considered as an idol to someone, to, to anyone. And no one gives a dam about the dance that I do??? I'm the existence that no one cares about”
"HYOYEON-AH" she walks next to Hyo and pushes all the empty cans lying on the bench and seat next to her facing towards her taking her hand in her own and rubbing over the back of her hand. “I-I care about you I mean we all do".
"So what the person I want to don't care about me"
"Wow it hurts to know that we are some useless nobody in your life" She pretended to push Hyo away and made a pouty face/ their very own classic puppy dog face
"Tae you know I don't mean it that way" Hyoyeon pulled Taeyeon's right hand close to herself and started playing with her fingers
"well at least one thing is clear, it's not about a group of people but one individual and that breaks it down to every guy you've ever known hmmm still not helping so...?"
"Sooooo” she replied interlocking her fingers with Taeyeon's and bringing their hands closer to her chin and resting her chin on their interlocked hands. It felt weird and new from hardly interacting to being there for each other during difficult times. And on top of that Hyoyeon being drunk and getting all touchy-feely was not helping at all. she continued "your hands are worm" she pulled Taeyeon's other hand, now place them on both on either side of her checks. "feels nice hmm," she said resting her face in Taeyeon's hands now fully turning her body towards Tae slowing moving forward. Even though the rooftop was cold Taeyeon's body heat was increasing she was feeling tensed under Hyoyeon's graze so she looked away and her eyes fell on the empty cans.
"... are you drunk ... with just 3 cans of beer??? Wow, that’s a new record” she tried to divert her mind by asking Hyoyeon if she was drunk which was quite clear by the way she was acting.
"Oh please, you think I'm you?? Well I’m not I had some wine before"
"Wow even when you're drunk your mean"
"That’s called being honest"
"Well it’s same for you"
"Hmm, I’m dating someone"
"Ya Sherlock like that was a secret”
"Eunhyuk"
"...."
"It’s been a month now"
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wow, it took me a year to write another chapter for this story. well here I am I almost gave up on it but nah hyotae is too precious to be left in the middle. since im making a comeback with this story after a long time I'm gonna start with a small chapter for now but get back to writing lengthy stuff later on. thank you for waiting a whole year for this

Also today the 20th of June will be forever hyotae day why ?? Remember jeju day that's why