It's 3;02am, and I can feel the breeze hit my exposed feet. I pull the blanket up further, and change my position, as i turn to the left of my bed. I'm always used to wrapping myself around Jimin when i'm cold, but this time I was curled up in my blanket, alone. I popped my head up a little bit, just so i can take a look at my phone that was on my dresser. I had 10 missed calls, and about 20 text messages. "y/n? are you up?" - "y/n?"- "I'm not coming home atm, i'm with the boys."- "y/n, i miss you.". There were so many messages, that i still couldn't read them because it was so late. I moved my blanket to the side, laying it on the bedsheets, and i slipped on my pink slippers and turned on my lamp. I sat on the bed, finally awake. I checked and read all of the messages and of course, they were all from Jimin.
I called him back about 3 times, and i gave up because he just wouldn't answer. I checked his social media accounts, but for some odd reason they weren't loading when i tried to check if he was on them. It was as if he blocked me or something? I wasn't supposed to be up at this time, but i had the day off from work, so I just decided to take a warm bath. I gathered my clothes and headed to the bathroom. I threw a few bath bombs into the bathtub, and i locked the bathroom door. I played some music on my beats pills, and laid in the bathtub, feeling as if all of my worries drifted away.
Feeling so relaxed, I closed my eyes for a few minutes. Suddenly, I was interrupted by the sound of keys being slammed onto a counter, and the door being locked shut. I shut off my music, and i put on Jimin's favorite red robe. I opened the bathroom door, and silently tip toed to the kitchen. I saw a shadow hovering over the sink, as i turned on the light. It was Jimin. "Baby? it's almost 4am, are you okay?". His body was still hovering over the sink, as my eyes searched his body, seeing each hand on the ends of the sink, clenching fists, as if he was upset. "Jimin?" I swear to god, if you would have seen him, you would have believed he was something out of some video game, because he just stood their frozen, but you could still see his body move slowly because of his breathing. "y/n.." he whispered, with a voice of regret. "Baby, whats wrong? Jimin are you okay?"
His hands slowly moved from the sink, as he turned around. He slipped his fingers through his silky black hair, and he licked his plump lips. "Jimin?" I walked closer to him, and he quickly dropped his head, looking at the ground. I put my hands on his neck to try and bring him closer, so that he could look at me. Then he finally gave in, and he made eye contact. For some reason, his eyes were locked into mine, and he wouldn't look away. "Jimin, why are you looking at me like this?" He then took my index finger and traced it on his stomach. "Jimin.. not now.. what are you doing?" "y/n..." I had to know why the only thing coming from Jimin was my name.. it was like he didn't know what else to say.. he whispered it in such a voice that worried me.. Worried, my finger was still tracing his chest, and he made me take off his shirt slowly. What i saw next, made my heart sink. His chest, smothered with hickies, and his eyes, filled with tears. I started shaking, and i pulled my finger from his hand. "y/n.. I already know whats going to happen next, i already know what you're going to say. I can't just stand here and say it was a mistake, because i know it wont make the situation better, and it wont help at all." i couldn't even speak. I stood there with my robe, as his eyes were exploring my body.
He had a little smirk, but when we made eye contact, it disappeared. "Jimin, i just can't believe that you had the strength to tell me this. I know i should be out the door, and i should be pissed off at you, but I just don't know what to do right now." "y/n.. Her name was Jenn, but i need to tell you something else. She told me that you and Taehyung were seeing each other after our recent filming of 'Fake Love'. I asked Tae if this was true, and i was just so pissed off at the moment. He wouldn't asnwer or respond to any of my calls or messages, so i assumed the worst. hours later, he also sent me 2 pictures of you and him at our favorite cafe, and you two looked so happy, i thought it was true. Then i saw your name light up on my phone on her dresser at her place when i was with her. She was on top of me, and i was so distracted. She was leaving marks on my chest, and all i was doing was reaching for my phone. She was on time, and made enough marks, that i pushed her off of me. We didn't do anything. She tried to take control over me, but i knew i was messing something up over being jealous. She told me to leave her apartment, so i did. All i could remember was her saying, " I left that mark for you to remember me." I didn't notice how bad these hickies were until i was speeding in my car on my way here. I still felt as if there were lips on my chest, and i cried just thinking about how i was going to tell you y/n.. the love of my life.."
"Jimin.. " I believed him.. I know that just by his voice, his eyes, the way he laid his head on my shoulder, i knew the love of my life felt regret, and i wasn't going to make things worse. Most girls would have probably pushed him, scream at him, or walk away forever.. But i love this man with all of my heart, and i know we can fix this.
"hey, you're wearing my favorite robe." he smirked. I stared at his plump lips, and i looked into his eyes, as i gave him an okay to kiss me. He pressed his lips softly onto mine, and he hugged me so gently. He pulled away from the kiss, and he took my hand as i followed him upstairs. He carried me up the stairs, as my hands were around his neck, and i kissed him a few times. He gently placed me back onto the ground and told me to get some rest, as he was going to take a shower. Walking into the bathroom, he noticed the bath was still full, and the water was still warm. "Want to join?" i asked him, with a smirk that always drove him crazy. "y/n.." "What?" "Get some rest, i don't want to keep you up baby." He said with a tone that surprised me. I turned around exiting the bathroom, when i felt his warm hands surround my waist. "i love you.." he whispered into my ear, as i felt his lips peck my neck. "i love you too." i said, as he slowly let go of my waist and closed the door.
1/2 an hour went by, and Jimin finally got out of the bathroom. I was on my phone and realized how quickly the time passed. i heard him walking towards the bedroom, so i threw my phone under my pillow, and closed my eyes. I felt his presence in the sheets, as he was panting. "Jimin?" I turned around to look at him, and he was sweating. "y/n.. i want you." "Jimin? i'm right here... baby you could talk to me.." "y/n.. I need you.." it was like every 10 seconds he couldn't stop groaning. "Jimin.. Im here!" I hovered on top of him, as his hands were covering his face. He only had briefs, so his chest was still exposed. hovering over him, my eyes couldn't stop looking at those hickies.. but i knew i didn't want to focus on them.. I fought against him, trying to move his hands away from his beautiful face. he gave in, and he let me take over. "Jimin.. Whats wrong, just let me understand, just talk to me." "I don't want to talk, i just want you, i want to forget everything. Just please y/n.. I want you.." i knew what he wanted.. but i just couldn't. "Jimin, let's just sleep, let's just do anything but focus on what happened or what's happening right now." I said to him, as he stopped me with a passionate kiss, wrapping his arms around me, as we fell asleep.
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Part 2 coming soon!
