Paint it Red.

Red Curtains.

Date: 8/21/97

Subject: Patient #145299793 Vena Johnson. Personal information report. Vena, has been noted as loud, uncooperative, and obnoxious. She has been banging her head against the cemented walls in her current room. She tries cutting herself with her finger nails. And is reported screaming at things that are not there. Daily medicine routine. Vena has been given a 'happy pill' every four-five hours a day. Vena is now roomed in room 5160 on the bottom level. In Solitary Confinement.

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I nod lightly these white walls, never are white in my eyes. They have people on them, history. I look down at my arms, folded at my sides in a jacket stuck there, I guess I have fallen a tad bit ill in the mind. Lately I've been seeing those children again, the bloody children, with cuts and bruises on them. But they try to tell me something every time they see me. I've gotten cuts on myself cause of them, I've gotten frightened cause of them, I can't trust anybody because of them!

I've tried fighting my insanity out of my mind, but it just pushes my sanity away too. There is no way out of this mess, fuck why can't I just go back?! Why can't I just rewind time! I wish I could go back and lock that door, my bedroom door. I wished I could just go back and kill both of them! That would've been a lot easier! She wouldn't have put me in this hell hole, she wouldn't have called anyone to take away her 'Crazy weak daughter.' I wished she was gone, along with the world. I wished everybody who was sick like my dad would just die.

But no one in their right mind would do anything to protect innocent people from the sick basterds. No, they'd watch it happen rather than make it stop. I hate the world. I wish it would stop spinning I wished everyone stopped and dropped dead. But my wishes never are heard, or granted. So what's the point of wishing if they never are heard?.....

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Docter Diez walked down the hall, just exiting her office to run the tests over on the new medicine. She opened the door and slipped the piece of paper into the lab table, then left the rest of the work to the people in the laboratory. She then exited the lab, walking back to her office to see what else she had to do. When she got in her office a notification alarm went off on her computer. She sat down in her seat clicking on it, it opened and the reminder screen popped up. Reminder:Give daily dose to Vena Johnson Patient#145299793. She nodded and stood up, grabbing a box, not the normal box, with the regular medicine in it. But the newer medicine, and left the room with it tucked under her arm.

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I was dosing off when I heard footsteps aproahcing my room, I looked at the door, and grinned lightly. I ducked my head down, so my hair blocked my face from them seeing. The door opened and two nurses came in. I looked up at them, but the thing that caught my eye was the syringe, the liquid inside of it wasn't the normal light green liquid, but instead a light blue jelly looking liquid. I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion. I didn't know what that liquid was, nor did I want it.

I scooted back a little bit, glancing around. I watched as one nurse walked behind me, "Wha-" Before I could finish my sentence his arms snaked under my arm pits and held me still. I wanted to kick to squirm and yell, but I found myself planted. I couldn't move, the other nurse walked up to me and pushed my head to the side so carelessly, and slowly put the needle into my neck. It hurt, as she pushed the blue liquid into my body I closed my eyes and bit my bottom lip, it hurt so badly, it felt like someone was stabbing me in the neck with a butcher knife-knife.........

The memory of my dads neck being sliced through ran through my mind, me standing on my knees pushing the blade against my dads neck. The way I jabbed it in and across made it seem, and look like I did it all the time......What am I thinking?! I opened my eyes and felt the hands release me, and the needle was gone. The nurses were leaving, and that liquid.....was in my body.

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I saw the lights shut off in the tiny window of my door, I layed down on my side onto the ground, I tried closing my eyes, but they just wouldn't close. So I sighed and used my leg strength also stomach to pull myself up so I was sitting up straight. I looked around my dark room and exhaled sharply. The darkened room reminded me of the basement, and anger was digging its way into my body. I saw something in the corner, like a tiny person, they were still. My mind was running, 'No, not them, no....not them again!' I thought in my mind.

I saw the shadow turn it head and what seemed like a smile appeared. I felt pain on my neck, a burning feeling. My eyes widened, I let out a scream, my lungs burned, my eyes began to hurt. It felt like my eyes were being stabbed, it-it felt like someone was slicing at my skin with a shredder. I screamed even louder, 'Stop! I'll listen!" I began screaming louder, "Just stop!" I felt the pain lessen. But it still hurt. Veeeennnnnnnaaaaaaaaaaa......I heard a voice hiss out my name, I slowly turned my head painfully to see who had said it. It was one of the children, a girl, she stood there her her dropped. She stayed like that for a minuet. Then she snapped her head up and grinned at me.

'Why can't you just leave me alone!?!" I screamed at them, my head was pounding at the pace of my heart,

Thud thud thud thud thud thud thud thud.

She cackled a little then dissapeared, I hoped they were gone for the night, I was already in a shit ton of pain. And I didn't want anymore! I didn't! I was done with that pain! I looked at Tue tiny window on my door. And felt nothing, saw nothing. The only thing I wanted more than anything, was out. A way out of this hell hole, to leave this hell hole....

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