Suicidal

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I am a person of survival...

But growing up that was not really my title...

A dead soul was screaming for revival...

A young girl who became suicidal...

I felt the hits and the kicks of society ...

Probably the reason why i suffer from anxiety...

I was nerver in the form of perfection...

So i became the best example of negletion...

They called me names from to fat bitch to white trash...

To other shit i won't say it's that bad...

They called me up and would always need back up...

Call me a slut and say my family was jacked up...

Death threats everytime i logged in...

Always on some other shit damn here we go again...

I was already alone, now  i'm looking for a friend...

Got no friends so here i am wishing it would end

And it didn't it nerver did, Was always something...

Everytime i felt good they would remind me i was nothing...

Everytime that i was down they couldn't help themselves but kick me...

It tore me a fucking part took all the fight i had left in me...

I had enough, I was so fucking done...

I couldn't face all the drama so i decided to run...

But you can't run forever, eventually you'll get tired...

So i just stared at the rope wishing my life would expire...

I mean fuck it, if i am really nothing...

Then nobody would stop me from taking that rope and jumping...

So i took it, tied it around my little throat and proceeded to jump...

When my mum bust in the door...

I didn't know what to do,

I didn't know what to say,

I saw the tears in her eyes  

I felt the pain go away...

How could i be so selfish? How could i think that i'm nothing...

When the person who gave me life obviously thought i was something...

Now i pray, pray for the people who never saw the light,

Pray for the people who still cry at night...

And those people think of my words like protection,

Think of them as the light when you fight depression...

Cos i know what it's like, i been there before...

But for every closed room i'm here to open the door...

i'm here to open the door, 

Awhh.

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⏰ Last updated: Jul 14, 2014 ⏰

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