Only A Mercer

Screw Up

~Austin

I stood there shocked. Did Damia Mercer just curse me out? What does her brother think of me now? What will happen to my reputation? Why do I feel like I just made the worst mistake of my life?

"Hey dude I don't know what's up with Mia please excuse-" Devin rambled

"No dude it's fine. I kind of deserved that. I was sort of an asshole to her. I only was because I wanted to catch her attention. Most girls are attracted to that, so I'm used to it. I'll make sure to apologize," SHIT! Now I was rambling.

"Look if you want to get Mia, woo her off her feet, but don't be an asshole. There's been enough of them in our life, hers especially."

"Okay I got it. Thanks, I think I'll go find her and apologize now. Hit me up later okay?"

"Alright."

I left the classroom in search of Mia. I really needed to apologize. I mean even though I am the school's bad boy, it's not really me. I'm not an actual bad boy. I just do those things because. One things for sure Mia is going to know the REAL me.

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"GAH!" I've looked everywhere around this school for her and I cant find her anywhere. What the hell!? I don't know any other place in this school to hide. I got a girl to check the bathrooms for me, I checked behind the bleachers, the Goth Cave, and everywhere else. Maybe she left? No. She wouldn't leave school, especially not the first day anyway. I stop and slide down a wall. Man I really fucked this up. I don't even understand why I'm sitting here fretting her if I could get any girl in this school. Oh hell! I actually like her. Noooooooooooo. This cant be possible. Austin doesn't like anybody. Austin is a player. I mean am I? Or is it the facade?

A hand on my knee breaks me away from my internal conflict. "Megan?"

"Duhh. What's wrong?"

"Umm ... nothing," I wonder if I should tell her. They had an argument earlier so I don't know how Megan feels about her.

"Don't lie to me Austin ... What's wrong?"

"Well I know you don't like her, but I seem to have gained a sudden crush on ..."

"On who?"

"Damia Mercer."

She blankly stared at me. I think she was soaking it in and gauging her response. "Helloo? Speak!"

"Why her?" She whispered.

"I honestly don't know. I do know that it's something there and it's becoming more and more apparent as I breathe."

"Honestly, to me she's just an ugly nerd. I don't care if she's famous. Being famous has done nothing for her, but after that little dispute this morning I did kind've give her more respect. I mean she doesn't know that, but I do. I guess fame did something for her after all. Anyways, I guess I could try to ... tolerate her now, but she probably doesn't wanna associate with me. Especially not after the hell I've put her through from the time she was in sixth grade. Damn! When she finds out we're related she might not give you a chance. Damn cuz, I'm sorry," Meg sobbed. In all my life I've never seen her care for anyone else's feelings. She really is the best cousin ever.

"Hey Meg it's fine. I might not even have a chance with her because of me, so don't go blaming yourself. I love you and I've never seen you care for anyone other than yourself. You're growing and you're a better person. I'm sure she'll love the new you. You should apologize and start a new slate." I smile weakly. I don't think I'll be happy again until I know I'm at least forgiven.

"Thanks cuz."

"You're welcome, and did you see her anywhere?"

"Oh yeah she was leaving school campus when I saw her. Good Luck!"

Wow. She really had the guts to leave on the first day. Wait. That means the situation is worse than I thought ... aaargh!

Okay. First things first, I need to find Devin. Oh wait, its lunch time this should be easy. I found Devin stuffing his face, of course, at a table full of jocks. Wait, jocks? It's his first day and he's already cool? Damn. He has skills."Hey Dev I know where she is, but I don't know exactly where it is ... so do you think you could take or tell me how to get there?"

"Uhh where is she?"

"Your house..."

"WHAT THE FUCK!? She's at home. Oh Hell! Mom is going to kill her!" He gave me the directions and off I went.

When I got to her house I found her in the kitchen in different clothes and her ears were plugged. She had on cookie monster tights and a black tank top. The outfit really complimented her curves. She was not skinny, but she was definitely nowhere near fat. She had the body of a curvy dancer. Everything sat in the right place. She had on fuzzy socks too. They gave off the inner child vibe. I always loved a girl who could be playful and childish, but mature as well. Gosh. She was getting to me. It's weird because I've seen her in movies and it was nothing to me, but having her in my face is the complete opposite. Her hair looking so luscious and gorgeous and blonde. I wish she was mine. I need her. Wait did I really just think all of that? Goodness. I sound like a girl. But I can't deny my manly thoughts either.

"Ahhhh," she jumped

"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to scare you," I said looking at my feet.

"Well whatever. Devin isn't home obviously because school isn't out. So you can take your bad boy antics somewhere else."

"Look I came to apologize okay. I know I was an asshole earlier and I truly do apologize I didn't mean to make you hurt or make it seem as if your brother was turning against you. I promise I didn't mean to. Look between me and you I'm not really this bad boy guy. I can be a gentleman and sweet. I really can. Just forgive me and we can move on and start over."

The way her face looked pained me. I was hurt. She look as if my apology did nothing to her opinion on me. She looked angry, sad, confused, and torn. I wanted to hug her and comfort her, but I knew she didn't want me to.

"You know what? I don't forgive you. Fuck forgiveness. I've forgiven too many people, for things they've fucked up. I'm done forgiving. If you were never an asshole to me, you wouldn't have this problem. Gentleman?! You couldn't be a gentleman to save your damn life. I don't want to talk to you or look at you anymore. Have fun with my brother, because that's as close to me as you're going to get. You sick bastard. I dislike you so much, and I've only just met you today. If that doesn't tell you something about yourself, I don't know what will. Now get out of my house." Cue the waterworks. Tears were flowing, and they didn't seem like they would stop for years. I could tell there was a double meaning behind her words. Again came the urge to go and comfort her.

"But Mi-" i started

"Don't you dare call me that name. You are not worthy. Now get out NOW!" She growled.

"Oh come on"

"NOW!"

"Okay okay. I really am sorry though Mi, I mean Damia. I hope you can forgive me." With that being said I left. I really hope she gives me a second chance, I have to prove myself. I will stop at nothing to at least have her as a friend. Although, I want her as a friend I know that I won't stop until she is mine.