"Enamored In Entropy"

Hoping against hope,

Knowing I have no rope.

I want it so bad,

But can't forget what I had.

It was so beautiful,

I can't let you see.

It's been locked away,

Deep inside of me.

Nobody will covet,

What I see in you.

Imperfect perfections,

A beautiful truth.

I have to let go,

Of what's been done.

Can't let my pain show,

If she's not the one.

A broken man,

With a tired soul.

Only twenty three,

But I feel so old.

I try not to look back,

But my thoughts betray.

I have to look forward,

For a brighter day.

My heart is homeless,

Destitute and cold.

Can't warm it myself,

Need someone to hold.

But what if she doesn't,

Feel the way I do?

My heart would retreat,

And never find truth.

Don't want to chance it,

Securely Insecure.

If I put myself out there,

I have to be sure.

No way of knowing,

So my heart is slowing.

No more love is flowing,

Cold chill wind is blowing,

Through me...