My Melancholy Hill

Supernova

Things have been getting better.
A lot better.
Almost as if a flip was switched inside my brain,
and finally turned on my emotions.
I don't feel as empty.
I don't feel as hopeless.

I'm not constantly thinking about every bad thing that has happened to me.
Of course there's times and moments where they come back.
But they're not as loud anymore.
Actually, they're just as loud.
But I guess I have found ways to push them away.
And sort of, become grounded again.
Tune into reality and everything around me.
Get out of my head.

I mean, don't get me wrong
I'd much rather be caught up in my head.
Instead of in a reality only full of disappointment, and sadness.
My own personal galaxy.
I should name my galaxy.
Melancholy Hill?
Maybe.

But, as I was saying
I am getting better..
I think..
If I just stay in my solar system and dream with the stars
Maybe everything will just melt around me.
And I'll be floating through space
Like a bird in a cage that wants nothing more than to be set free.

I'd like that
I wish I could stay in my head forever.
And escape everything. Everyone.
Well, of course there are ways.
But I promised.
Promised that I would stayed grounded
But, I guess that doesn't matter.
They left
So why wait?
It's not like anyone would care anyway.