[ miyoung ]
my heart started beating fast. why the hospital? did something happen to jihoon? i grabbed my phone, keys and wallet, and rushed out. i hailed a taxi and begged the driver to get to the hospital as fast as possible. please be okay...
"miyoung?" i looked up to see mrs. lee.
"where is jihoon? is he okay?" i ran to her.
"jihoon...he..." mrs. lee couldn't complete her sentence. she just wiped her tears and shook her head. what????!
she pointed to the room next to us. i dashed in to see a pale jihoon.
"ji...jihoon..."
he looked up at me. his pale and dry lips formed a smile, a sad smile. he weakly motioned for me to come closer, so i did.
"im...im sorry...why did you...come?" he whispered.
"i came because i was worried sick. jihoon, what's wrong?" tears filled my eyes.
"...i failed in making you forget about me... im sorry...don't get too upset... but..."
"but what lee jihoon?" i softly grabbed his hand.
"i am at the last stage of cancer... and... i might die anytime..."
my heart just shattered. tears spilled uncontrollably. i bit my lip to stop me from crying too hard, but failed.
"i... didn't want you to get too upset, so i started being mean to you, hoping you would forget about me. so that when i die... the impact won't be so great... there was no cure when i first found out i had cancer. i knew i would die..." he smiled sadly.
"i... i love you jihoon ah... not just as a best friend. i liked you for a long time... you pabo.... why...why...." i started sobbing.
"yah... don't cry, you look ugly..." he chuckled weakly.
"i...i can't..." the impact was too big.
"right now... stay here with me... until i sleep forever... will you?"
i nodded my head profusely.
he sighed weakly and lightly squeezed my hand.
"remember when we were young? that song i was writing?" he smiled.
"ye..yeah... you didn't complete it."
"i did now. and i want you to be the first person to hear it." he whispered.
'ajikdo haru onjongil jiruhagi manhan morning
far away so far away
far away so far away
eonjekkajina jinjeoni eomneun neowaui georin
so far away
far away so far away
ajikdo yejeonui nae meomuneunji
geurae amado jageun neoui nunen ajik
eorin aiui moseubeuro boigetji
mwo haru iteurui ireun anini
geunde mwol eotteokhae
nae apeseo unneun ge singyeong sseuineunde
geunyang gamanhi isseul sanghwangeun aninde
i wanna be your morning baby
ijebuteon be alright
hamkke inneun morning baby
i want you to be my night
neoui saenggakhaneun modeun ge
naui modeun geot i doel su itdorok
nal bwajwo and be my lady
you're my twenties'
the tears still flowed non stop as he whispered his last line. his heart rate started to slow down. no...
"someone save him!" i cried while shouting towards the door. doctors came in. i stayed right by his side, grabbing onto his hand.
"stay longer... please..." i cried.
his heart beat slowed down even more. just before he closed his eyes and went to sleep forever, he did a hand sign, and i understood it perfectly.
'i love you'
"i love you too." i whispered as the machine sent a long beep.
"november 17, 3.03 pm." the doctor stated his time of death.
"shit you jihoon, for leaving me." i chuckled bitterly.
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