Who Are U? // Namjin ✗ Discontinued

- Radio -

   Walking in the cafè at about 7:00 PM I released a sigh of relief. No one was there, and that means no more awkward encounters for today. I hope. 

   I turned off the neon 'open' sign in front of the store and started to clean. While cleaning the counter I thought of today.

  So basically, I meet two dorks on the internet who I hope I can see again sometime soon. Then there was that lady who broke my phone? Yeah, that still confuses me. Did she really have a hate for phones? Or maybe even a hate for me? But she didn't know me? I sighed again, moving on to mop the floor.

   But then there was that encounter at the electronic store. You know those stranger crushes you get? Like those crushes you have on that one stranger, but you know you'll never see them again? Yeah that basically happened to me. But I don't have a crush on that, tall, handsome, funny, awkward, cute, dimple guy... because I'm straight, yup straight. I stopped mopping the floor for a second. Okay, maybe I do have a crush on him. But that's besides the point because first of all, I'll never seen him again, second of all, he likes this girl and probably only likes girls and thirdly adopting sounds so hard, imagine all the paper work we'd have to do... Yeah, I need to stop fantasizing.

   As I finally finished cleaning the cafè, I grabbed all my stuff, turned off the lights, went back to my car, and headed home. I realized the silence in my car so I turned on the radio. "-And tonight we have a special guest, JJkie! If you don't know him, then you're missing a lot!" The radio speaker chuckled. Oh right, I totally forgot about his new album. In interest, I turned the volume up on the radio.

   "So about your new album, 'Forever Here', what's it mostly about, what's the story behind it?" He asked. "Hm, it's really complicated but..." I assumed JJkie stopped to think, "How do I put this in words... Falling in love is hard. No matter gender, appearance, location, any sort of that stuff. There will be complications. So this album is pretty much explaining what was going on with me and my boyfriend's relationship when it-" he then got interrupted by the radio speaker. "Wait, you said boyfriend. Is it true? You're gay?" "Well I-" without the singer even finishing his answer the man interrupted again. "You heard it here first! JJkie, a top selling solo artists, gay!"

   "But this isn't what it's about sir-" he tried to explain, raising his voice up. "We've heard the important part, we don't need any more information. Anyways congratulations on your new album!" "Sir-" he tried again. "Off to commercials!" And then the commercials started to play.

   What the fuck? What just happened? They should of just let the boy talk. Wait, JJkie is gay? That means it's acceptable right? I smiled to myself, then realized how selfish I was being at the moment. Jesus Christ Jin, this is not a time to be smiling you should worry about the boy. I turned off the radio to process what just happened.

   Finally, I got to my apartment building. Parked my car, then went inside with my cracked phone, keys, and wallet in my back pocket of my uniform. Clicked the 'Floor 3' button on the elevator and waited until I got up. Then unlocked my apartment door and stepped in to finally relax. It's pretty much the same thing every day, It's like muscle memory at this point.

   First thing first, I went to change out my uniform into something more comfortable, an oversized shirt and pajamas pants. I know, I'm such a fashion designer, you don't have to tell me. I plopped down on my sofa and turned on my T.V.

   "JJkie confirmed that he infact has a partner, who is the same sex." Was the first thing I heard when I turned on the T.V. Not wanting to here this again, I changed the channel to my favorite one, "JJkie turns out to be gay!" Jeez, is everyone talking about this? I really didn't want to hear anything about this, but I hugged a pillow and stayed anyways because it was either this, a kid show, or a documentary. And I really did not want to learn about the ABC's or how penguins care for their eggs.

   "After an interview with an unnamed radio show, JJkie told them that his album was about his boyfriend's and his conflicts together. This already left thousands and millions of fans shocked. It even left a huge impact on his career. But we hope he can get help to fix his mind set and get him back on trac-" and with that I turned the electronic off. Without knowing why my eyes started to tear up.

   Jin, why are you crying you don't even like the opposite gender. Do I? Maybe I do and I'm crying because of that. Maybe I'm crying on how fucked up this world is. Or maybe I'm crying because If I do like the same sex, no one will accept me. Why can't people just love whoever the want? Why is that so hard to understand? And after thinking to myself for hours, I fell asleep on the couch with tears falling down my cheeks.