Forever Last

I look down on you. I literally do. Your face keeps fading in my memory. I'm scared to see you pale white. Cold as ice. Dark as night. You change my path. I can't go anywhere far. It feels like I am trap by your charm forever. What should I do? Summer had gone as well as you. You said forever last but why did you leave me? The tedious part of the afternoon is where you leave me hanging. I thought you'll come back like the way we met.

It was a cold afternoon. Snow is pouring down my shoes. And I felt so down because I was fired from work. People are passing by so fast. I can't even join their walk. I look back, hoping someone would stop by to see me. No one did. I was very devastated. I am popular. God damn . Astoundingly, majestic actress of the century. It seems that time pass by so fast. No one dare to look me. I felt so depress, sad. When I turn around, it seems like my world went upside. My heart flies into the house of heaven. I saw you staring at me, lighting your cigar. A smile. You leave me a mark of your curve and luscious lips. I almost want to kiss you, take you. You seem so familiar yet your a complete stranger. How am I suppose to move? How am I suppose to talk? I felt so conscious of myself. You went closer and closer. Putting your hand inside your pocket because it's too cold. Your beauty is impecably timeless. I want to touch the scar beside your eyes. It was perfect. You are perfect. I was hypnotized by your present. Addicted by your smell. I could be with you forever but it was deception. A lie. 

Suddenly, I felt a pain beside my stomach. A sharp object is inside me. It was not pain of being shot, rather deceive. You are so great. You were able to deceive a penniless actress. Why don't you have mercy? I never knew you yet I love you. I almost soak in blood. Everything becomes blur. Like a camera, I was only focusing on you. A hint of betrayal and anger had lingered into my eyes. It was wrong. Everything is wrong. You are still standing in front of me. You hold my face like a fragile glass and look through my heart. I was mezmerized by your gentleness. I can't even utter a word. Your clothes are full of blood. I am afraid to loose you now. Your the first man who look upon me. It will be a tragedy to see you gone so fast, like a dream that was forgotten. 

How can that happen?

I was wrong. I was wrong. It was not you. It was somebody else. Why? Why did you save me? You didn't even know me. You whisper to me like a melodic humming of birds. I can't even understand every word you say. I want you to be with me. Please. Please. Please. I ask God to save you from death. Like a flash, your gone. People tried to make me calm down. I cried. I whip my tears but the pain is endless. I only knew you for a second yet you mean so much. Is that even possible? Can I cry to a stranger? Love, your the person I never knew but love the most. Why did you leave so fast?

I try to snap myself on reality. Everything seems like a video strip that keeps playing in my head. And then I saw you inside your coffine. Wait.

Wait.

Wait.

My brain cannot comprehend what am I seeing. Is this an illusion or Am I  insane? It was not you nor everyone else. My stomach felt so weird like everything twirl upside down. What am I doing inside the coffin? Why am I lying there? You save me my Love. It suppose to be you. Why me? I love our short meeting. In one point of my life, I found you. Our worlds are parallel yet you came and intersect to mine. It was just a glimpse yet it felt so long. I longed for you. And then I saw you, staring at me. I saw you grieving for me. Your eyes look lifeless. It was not the way it used to be. Why? What is happening? I thought your gone but your there. And I look lifeless. 

A sharp edge tickles inside my brain and everything went dark.

I am gone.

And I remember you whisper unto me "forever last ".