Faces Of Love: JJ Project Short Stories

3 - 미안해 사랑해 | I'm sorry, I love you (Omegaverse)

//Rated: Mature//
//Warning: Contains sexual scene and consensual mild violence//

"What? You're going to confess to Park Jinyoung?"

The name perked Jaebum's ear. He munched his food slowly as he kept listening to the girls' conversation. It seemed the said girl nodded from how her friends were reacting.

"Are you for real? I mean, I know he's a high quality beta that's more capable than some alpha jerks, and so charming that not only betas, alphas and omegas are also attracted to him. But doesn't he always reject every advances and confessions? Isn't the wall surrounding him too high to climb?"

"I know, but I just want to let him know my feeling so I won't have any regret. I heard he always rejected confessions in a nice and kind way, that everyone accepted it with no hard feeling. I heard he even cheered them up. I'm actually scared I'm gonna fall more for him after I confess because of how kind and attentive he is."

Jaebum stopped listening. He gobbled down his meal, shifting his attention to the bibimbap in front of him. He pitied himself from envying the girl, and all the people who was able to confess to Jinyoung. Something that would forever be impossible to him.

"Hey, why are you eating here alone?"

Suddenly Sungjin, showed up, putting his tray on the table in front of him. He sat down, one eyebrow raised. Jaebum only shrugged as an answer.

"I don't mean to pry, you don't have to answer me. Do you have a bad blood with Park Jinyoung?"

"No, why?"

"Just wondering. You're fine hanging out with Mark, Jackson, Youngjae, Bambam, and Yugyeom, but whenever Jinyoung is added to the scene, you'll stay away. If you don't hate him, then why? Didn't you came from the same high school?"

"Not only high school, we've been together since elementary, actually," Jaebum glanced at the mentioned boy, many tables away from where he was sitting at the corner of the cafeteria. Jinyoung was laughing at something that Jackson said, and he felt a sting in his heart. He averted his gaze to Sungjin's widened eyes before Jinyoung noticed it.

"What? You're his childhood friend? Then why? Are you in a fight or something?"

"Not really," Jaebum smiled bitterly. He knew Sungjin wasn't the kind of person to blabber up, and maybe he just needed someone to share his mind with, so he continued. "We're just become toxic to each other. If I were there, he wouldn't laugh like that. Not anymore."

Sungjin frowned. "So he hates you?"

Jaebum shook his head. "Not exactly. What he hates is that I'm his medicine. He needs this poison to live normally."

"Wait, what?" Sungjin furrowed his brows, "I don't understand."

Jaebum chuckled. "Don't mind it, it's too complicated. I can't tell you more. Sorry."

Sungjin smiled. "Don't be. You're not obligated to tell me anything. Thanks for trusting me enough to tell me those things, actually."

Jaebum smiled back, watching as his friend started eating. Suddenly, a familiar scent, though faint, passed through his nose. A scent only him could smell. His eyes snapped back to Jinyoung, who was no longer laughing. His face paled, and he was sweating bucket. He saw him excused himself and walked outside. He quickly picked up his bag and stood up, earning puzzled stare from Sungjin.

"Sorry, I need to go now," he said. Without waiting for Sungjin's response, he ran after Jinyoung. However, the boy was already nowhere in sight. The familiar scent was still there, though. He followed it, trailing its trace which brought him to the farthest stall in the toilet. He put cleaning in progress sign outside the toilet before entering and locked the door. The smell hit him strong, he could barely keep his head clear even after all those suppressant he took by routine. He tried not to think about it as he put down his bag and knocked the door.