The Leader's Secret [DISCONTINUED]

ᴄʜᴀᴘᴛᴇʀ ғᴏᴜʀ - ᴛʜᴇ ᴅɪᴀʀʏ

Ok so this chapter will have a angsts moments so if you get triggered easily I suggest you wait for another update.

Author's POV

"Hyung....'' Namjoon slowly backed up from the elder as memories - bad memories starts to flood in his mind.

~Flash back~

"Appa! Appa! Look what I found!" A seven year old Namjoon said as he runs to his father.

His father raised an eyebrow at his son. His eyes widen as he saw what his son is holding.

"Kim Namjoon what is that?"

"It's a bug appa! Isn't it pretty? It's so little! It's so cu--" Namjoon was cut off from his father slapping the bug away from his hands.

"Namjoon families like us don't do things like that. Go up to your room and don't come down till dinner young man." His father said looking disgustingly at Namjoon's hands.

"Am I clear?" Mr. Kim said as he pointed at his son.

"Yes father" Namjoon hated calling his appa father.....it sounds like he isn't his appa but his father...a father that doesn't care about his filth of a son.

He wiped his eyes preventing the tears from falling. All his life he was treated like this. Everyone says that his manners but at a Seven year old's view manners seems like your being fake.

You use your best fake smile to fool people and make them think you actually like it. It's not true. And Namjoon hates it.

Once his bedroom came to view, the maids opened the door. He sighed while entering the said room. He always wants to help the maids and cooks to tend the house but his father never lets him. His mother died when he was Four years old.

He doesnt remember that much from his mother. All he has is the notebook his mother gave to him. He never wrote anything in it. Thought he's life is too boring. He gripped the notebook close to his chest. He finally let his tears fall as he quietly sobbed.

"I miss you mom...."

~Flash Back ended~

Author's POV

Namjoon didn't realise that he was crying until arms wrapped around his surprisingly small frame.

"Sshhh Joonie....sweetheart it's ok" the older man's voice rang through his head like a bell. Just then his mind is poisoned with negative thoughts again.

I'm not worth anything

I should grow up

For gods sake Namjoon your 23 years old act like it!

The last thought seems to snap Namjoon out of his trans as he cried. The tears looks like it's not stopping any minute so Namjoon got out from the grasp from the elder.

"Joonie?" He met his hyung's eyes and immediately regretted it. His eyes shown something he saw in his fathers eyes. Pity.

"I'm okay hyung I-I just need a minute" the younger ran to his room locking it. His tears seems like a water fall as it continues to fall. He saw the bear and cuddled with it thinking that maybe he was just as others say to him.

A burden.

But he also knew they we're saying that because they're jealous. Yet he can't help but listen to them. It's in his nature.

Unknown to him Jin stood outside the door listening to his sniffles and cries. The olders heart broke as he listened but he knew the younger needed time. He quietly vowed to himself as tears started to fall from his eyes :

"Don't worry Joonie....Hyungie will help you"

So yeah angst. I hate angst but I also love drama. Anyways I hope everyone's having a good day/night!

Question:
What do you think will happen to Namjoon after this?