sad eyes | e.d

chapter 9

play this song:
hard 2 face reality - justin bieber

[i know it's hard away from home and it ain't easy all alone]

sunday

yesterday once grayson and jayden had left the room i instantly walked out of the closet; leaving the house and going home.

the entire walk home tears wouldn't stop falling down my cheeks.

i received a few peculiar looks from people that walked past me but in all honesty, i didn't care.

as soon as i reached my house, i ran into my bedroom, lied down onto my bed and cried.

i didn't leave my room all day, not even when my mom called me down for food. i wasn't hungry.

i fell asleep without anything to eat all day and wasn't planning to move from my bed for a long time.

my tired body rolled over and i reached for my phone, analyzing the time that projected from the bright screen.

8:08pm.

shit. i've been laid in the warmth of my bed all day, doing nothing and letting the last of my tears roll down my cheeks.

i yawned drastically and forced myself to exit my warm bed.

remembering the events that happened yesterday, a thin glossy layer formed over my eyes before sitting back down onto my bed.

i used my small hands to rub away the dried tears that were upon each cheek whilst resting my arms on my knees.

i inhaled a deep breath of air before exhaling through my nose.

a sudden buzz of my phone caused my body to jump slightly and my immediate attention was placed onto the screen.

once i picked my phone up, my eyes landed onto the message which was from ethan.

8:09pm
ethan: can you meet me?

my heart immediately started to beat at a faster pace than before; thinking about yesterday.

i know that ethan is going to talk to me about gray and how i just need to forget him but it's not that simple.

the feelings i had for grayson can't just be forgotten overnight; i need time.

hovering my fingers over the keyboard i replied.

8:11pm
me: when and where?

8:14pm
ethan: 9pm and at the lake near school

8:15pm
me: i'll be there

i applied a small amount of pressure to the button on the side of my phone, turning it off and standing up again.

feeling drowsy, i walked towards my bathroom before removing the clothes from my body to get into the shower.

after stepping into the shower my finger pressed the silver button which had the power sign engraved into the center of it; letting the water sprout at force onto my skin.