ONLY YOU

She insisted him to have a conversation after a long time.
He said, "Umm.. but we're talking now as well."
She replied, "Ya, but I mean, we didn't have any conversation.." She stops for a while and continues after his silence, "Umm.. we didn't have any long conversation since a long time."
He remains silent for a while and speaks up, "Hmm ya, will do that." She narrows her eyebrows and asks, "Ya, but when? Can you plz call me at night?"
He lifts up his eyebrows and with a little hesitation, says, "Today, I'm not sure."
She speaks up stressing her words, "Umm.. No problem. I'll wait."
He speaks in an irritated manner, "I'm not sure, I said; I've a lot of works."
She looks into his eyes and sensing his irritation, suddenly looks down.
He continues in the same tone, "Don't you have anybody else to talk if you're in so much mood to talk to someone?"
A silence follows his voice.

She breaks the silence by saying, "Hmm, ok. Tell me when you'll be free. Sorry for asking you this same thing again."
He feels guilty for a while, stays silent and speaks up, "Hmm, so I should go now."
She says, without moving her lips, "Umm.. Hmm."
He stands from the chair and thinks that today, a lot of conversation had silence sprinkled over it, so he asks her for some water just to spend a little of few moments more.

She stands up, goes to the kitchen, comes back and offers him a glass of juice.
He asks her to bring water in even more irritated voice while stressing upon the word water.

She takes the juice back and comes back with coffee with a calm smile on her face. She straightens her arm holding coffee towards him.
He asks, "Have I asked for this?" This time, she could see his irritation on his face and in his voice as well, but still maintains the calm smile on her face. She goes back and brings milkshake, intentionally.

He gets irritated to the core and says, "Fine! leave. I really don't get you sometimes."
He turns around and in no time, she holds his hand. He speaks in a loud voice, "Leave!"
This single word in his high voice broke the fake calm smile on her face. She speaks, "I'm sorry. Wait." He turns towards her and speaks, "Seriously? Sorry? You very well know what you did just now. And sorry? What are you upto?"

She could clearly see his unapproved reactions of holding his hand so she leaves it at that very moment without giving it a second thought.

She feels guilty and speaks, "I.. I'm sorry. Just a second."
She goes inside and comes with a glass of water in her hand.
She takes her hand holding glass of water towards him and speaks in nearly crying voice, "Please have this water. I'm sorry. Have some water, please."
He takes the glass of water in his hand and asks her to explain why did she do all this.

She wishes all of this to be a dream as she instantly realizes that she won't be able to describe the reason behind this and the reason is actually her own feelings which are so damn hard to express and that too when he is in this bad mood.

He bends a little to keep the glass of water on table while saying that he's in no mood to stay there anymore.
She apologizes again and asks him to have water so that she could get few more seconds to prepare herself for speaking out the reason behind this.
He gets irritated and speaks, "I don't want to have water now. Either you tell or I'll go."

She gathers all her gutts to express her feelings in words, "Look. When you had asked for water, I brought you juice, coffee and milkshake. It's not that you don't like these. You like all of these and that too so much, I know. But you got irritated even on your favourite things. Know why? Just b'coz, these are not the things which you wanted right then. You wanted water. And, when I didn't get you water, you shouted."

She looks into his eyes and finding him staring her continuously, she shifts her eyes to ground and continues, "So, why can't you understand my condition? It's not that I don't have anyone else than you; it's just when I need you, that means I need you. Only you. Nobody else. Ok, fine. I understand that you're busy with your works. But at-least give me a time. I'll wait for you. Yes, I'll wait. For you. If I don't get water when I'd need, I'll somehow manage. My body has enough of water to keep me alive. But, you! When I need you, that means it's just you. I've nothing of you and believe me, if I don't get you when I want, I'll just be alive. Just Alive! And, you know very well that 'living' and 'just being alive' are two different things. Either tell me clearly that you don't want to come or in case, if you want to, then give me a proper time that yes, we'll be talking then. But. Don't make me starve for you. Please. Starvation for you is worse than starving for water."

She realizes that she has expressed a lot of her than what the situation actually wanted. With the realisation in her eyes and feelings of her heart on her lips, she looks into his eyes.
He continuously looks into his eyes and this time she doesn't look down!
He holds her wrist, keeps the glass of water on the table kept aside and comes closer. She lets him look into her eyes without blinking. But this time, he himself breaks the eye contact, by hugging her as tightly as he could.♡

~Miss V