Love Me: Jungkook

Chapter 10

I don't know how long I stay in my position, frozen, not knowing how to react as I watch Rose and Jungkook interact.

This must be a mistake, I'm mistaking.

Rose walks towards me with a grin as she pulls jungkook with her.

"Jisoo! This is my boyfriend!" She gush, a excited expression on her face as she got to finally introduce her boyfriend to me.

Her boyfriend is indeed good looking and nice like she said.

"We've already met before." Jungkook says and Rose gasp.

"Really! She's my roommate."

"I know." Jungkook says to Rose while looking at me who can't even react to his stare right now as I stare blankly, my mind blank.

"Really? And I was so excited to introduce you guys but you already know each other." Rose pouts, hooking her arms around jungkook.

"I.. I need to use the bathroom. I'll be back. " I say and immediately Start wheeling away from them, not even waiting for their reply.

This feeling is the feeling I get when I have my expectation high, thinking I would have a friend and a lover but I can actually have one, or None if possible.

It hurts to know he's dating Rose, cause Rose is a good person and I don't want to do anything to hurt her but there is jungkook the first guy who made my heart beat.

Its the right to let my feelings go, but can I. I don't even know if he likes me.

I can feel the burning feeling in my chest and in my eyes as tears start falling.

I wheeled fast into the comfortroom, not wanting people to see my crying face and how pathetic I am.

I'm so pathetic. So freaking pathetic, so stupid.

How can someone like me even hope to be liked back by someone like jungkook.

Of course he'd date Rose. Rose is nice, she pretty and she's not a burden or abnormal like me.

He never said he liked me but I had my hopes and expectation all over the place.

Here I am sobbing in the bathroom stall like crazy.

Feeling pity full of my self. Even if I'd want to use this bathroom, I'd need help, what am I, ababy!? Even just to pee I'd need a damn help.

And I wanted a guy who had everything.

Why am I even feeling  like I was betrayed. He was just being nice, he didn't promise me anything. Its not my right to feel like this.

He never made promises, I was the only one who made promises.

I even told my dad about him! I'm so stupid! So stupid! Is this how desperate I am to be loved??

I don't know how long I stayed in the bathroom crying drowning in my own sadness, pity and stupidity.

Pulling out the tissue from my side, I wipe my eyes and taking in a deep breath.

I wheel out of the bathroom stall and head to the mirror, to take a look at my face.

Ugly. That was the first thought that came in my mind.

Useless. The second thought that came in my mind when I see myself in the wheelchair.

All the good thought I had were just backfiring at me.

Want to be a model? Yeah right. You are useless.